After what I discovered about Jokoy interacting with a girl and realizing he was confused about his feelings for me, memories began to flood back into my mind. I started writing a song with regards to the memories of my childhood. I want to showcase how I spent my youth and how I struggled.
I was walking in the streets, and my eyes roamed around. I can see how beautiful the world is; it blooms like flowers. I looked back and forth and stopped my stare in the middle of the road. Jokoy was standing there, looking at me. Is he going to choose me now? My question wasn't answered as his image disappeared and mixed with the wind.
Early in the morning the next day, I am alone, sitting on the bench in the park, trying to reach the sky above me. I have a feeling that everything will be okay. With the yellow leaves falling from the tree, it stopped floating in front of me. This represents love and happiness in being in love. I want to keep the old yellow from when Jokoy showed his love to me without having double thoughts. I want to keep those memories.
The night comes, and the dark setting is illuminated by the dazzling light from the moon. The sound of the recording film mesmerized me and made me replay what happened. I am going home and just looking out the car window but tears are flowing from my eyes as I taste the bitterness of my past.
I am still wondering if a beautiful story may happen to me. I am still wondering when the best part of my life will be. Until now, I have been lost and still wander. What will my next story be? I want to make him mine. Mine only.
I may not be enough; no, I am not enough. He will never be confused if I am enough. I apologize for my lacking, but I am who I am. I thought that would help. Thinking back with my lost mind, I regret everything that happened. I was lost, and I am sorry for that. I thought I was enough.
Baby, I will gather all the scattered moonlights and make another radiance in our lives like yesterday, but more than that. Come near me; do not hesitate more; I will forgive, and we will forget.
Jokoy one day approached me and said, "I am sorry if I doubted my feelings for you, Voo. But when you were distant from me, I realized I love you more than anyone else and I cannot live without you." I cried in his arms, clutching his shirt.
"I am tired. Baby, I am tired." I kept on mumbling those. Tears didn't stop falling.
"Baby, can you please tell me honestly? Am I not enough?" I am asking him, looking at him with my close fist still holding on to his shirt, eyes still stained by tears. Jokoy is also crying while shaking his head firmly.
"No. Do not think that way. Never think you are not enough. You're more than enough, Voo. There are many noona in the world, but I have the one and only Taesha. Irreplaceable, incomparable, priceless, a treasure that should be kept forever." I cried more with what I heard and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around my back and sobbed on my shoulder.
"I am sorry, Voo. I will never doubt again how much I love you." I released myself from his arm and walked backward, leaving enough space between us.
The question is evident in his teary eyes with his still-open arms.
"The next time you get confused, if ever a time comes when you will love someone else, can you please tell me? Can you please inform me? Can you please leave marks and footprints? I will keep those and keep them warm with me together with our memories." I told him that made him cry more.
"I will go on with my life with your footprints because I don't want anybody else except you. I am 100% sure of that." He didn't answer back, but pain is visible in his face.
"Don't worry, baby. I will always be right here. To the place where you left me. I will stay neutral and never judge nor hate you. I will stay in black and white. I love you."
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