ᝰ . 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗟𝗘𝗧𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗦 .

♠ :: LETTER FOUR

LETTER FOUR ;; BREAKING OFF A PROMISE.

Dear lyney,

Sorry for the late response, i just got your letter. Most importantly Sorry for breaking our promise, you know where we promised that we would built a small little house together and live happily ever after, getting a cat or two, making our wishes come true where i would continue being a writer and you being the best magician in the whole universe! And the reason for the house was if one of us ever felt sad we would go back to the house. Our true home, with no useless tears being spilled because i would have been there for you and you would have been there for me. But sadly, all books dont end with happy ending. And i am sorry for that.

Life itself is full of nothing expect for two things; fake romance and lies. I never felt love in my life or maybe i did, everything feels like a fog in my head. I cant remember what the truth is and what the lie is. but, all i know is that i dont want to suffer like i did with my past love. I would move on but..i already decided another fate.

you tried multiple times to change my mind and i will be saying the truth lyney, if it werent for you i would have died two years ago. Another thing i liked about you was that you see me as [name] and not the so called 'famous writer [name] [last name]' i can't understand why i am happy when you see as just a normal person. You really changed my life lyney and i am glad you did but, i am sorry. Suicide feels like the only ending for me and if i survive i wont end my life and keep the promise..but, if i did die then please don't ever waste your tears on me. I want you to continue being yourself the normal lyney and not the lyney i see on stage. And dont be like me and break the promise, kept it and built our dream house because one day you will find someone who will love you and you would love them more.

You know, i really did enjoy being a writer and writing every single idea that came in my head and even though it wasnt a full like masterpiece that would be in a museum, i had fun, and i guess thats what mattered to me. But i dont know what happened. It definitely wasn't my past love or a relative or anything. But, i simply just lost every enjoyment i used to feel in life.

I wanted to stay beside you but the feeling and emptiness thats inside of me is holding me in a chokehold and i cant seem to escape it. I am sorry, for many reasons i am sorry..for being weak and simply just existing and sorry for leaving and breaking my promise.

As i am writing this letter you will never hear from me again nor see me. I am sure you know that, correct? Unless i somehow survive then you would never see this letter and i would probably burn it.

I would say lyney, we were always meant to be. In every universe I believe that we were soulmates, always finding each other no matter the cost. But not in this one. a life where i cant have the freedom i want is something i don't want. Thats why i hope we meet again in a peaceful world where we are two other people that dont have to say goodbye.

i will always love you to the end of the universe and back.

Untill we met again my favorite magician. I loved and will continue to love you so much even if i am decomposing under the ground.

Yours sincerely,

[nickname] <3