the nfl guy

missing in new york

taylor's pov :
warning :ed thoughts

i'm just in bed cuddling with benji and reading a book before bed when i decide to go on twitter and like some fan posts and theories.i was scrolling smiling at their reactions to my likes when i come across a post .

taylor swift is fat ??

under was an attached photo comparison of me a couple years ago and now .i know i shouldn't be looking at this but  my eyes and stuck to it like chewing gum on a blanket .i then take it on myself to look at the comments and come across things like "skinny tay was better " and "wow never realised how much more attractive she was then ".it was the occasional fan sticking up for me but it was like a pin in a hay stack finding those comments .

tears were now flowing out my eyes into my ears when i get spam texts from travis but ignore them so he doesn't see me sobbing .then i got a. call from him and declined it ,then another ,then another .after a couple minutes ,it stops and i continue crying in peace clutching onto my stomach and thighs wailing out .i soon stand up in a rage and go over to the mirror and take off all my clothes and inspect my body . i haven't done this in a long time and didn't think i would be again .how can something like this set me off ??

my sobs are interrupted by the doorbell ringing multiple times and i have no intention of opening it until it just doesn't stop .i carry on sobbing ,unable to stop and reach behind my door and put my robe loosely on and tie my hair back in a pony tail and jog down the stairs .nearly at the door ,i look in the mirror and wipe under my eyes .it's so obvious iv been crying and i groan and go to the door .

"can you please go away "i sob at the door not opening it .

"taylor ,open up right now !"i hear a familiar voice behind the other side .
travis ?!

i quickly unlock the latch and swing it open and look at his face with salty tears running down and face and a look of worry washes over him .he steps forward and wraps his long muscly arms around me and i grasp onto his shirt and streams on water collect on his shirt creating a puddle .

after staying like that for a couple minutes he picks me up bridal style and my face stays in his chest but my sobs are slower .he carried me upstairs to my room and placed me down on my bed and put the covers and a blanket over me and i carried on lightly crying into the pillow .

travis pov :

i'm so excited .coach gave the team a whole week
of cause it snowing really bad in kansas so our next couple games are cancelled .i haven't told taylor cause i'm surprising her in new york .as soon as i step out that car into the raining streets of new york ,i bring out my phone and little droplets fall on the screen as i text taylor waiting outside her apartment .after a couple minutes i text again as there was no response and that didn't get a reply either .i called and called with nothing until her security come out and recognise me and send me up to her door .i knock in for a while and worry builds  with every knock .

after what feels like a decade ,i head footsteps come to the door and it feels like a million bricks have been lifted off my shoulders ,but when she opens up the door and i see her gorgeous face ,it's like those same bricks have been thrown right at me again .i have never seen her cry,and by the looks of it this was a big one .the full under of her eyes are red ,including her nose ,sobs are coming out of her lips and rivers of tears from her tranquil blue eyes .i had no idea what to do but i just knew she needed love and comfort.out of instinct,i wrapped my arms around her small frame and her sobs became louder and i felt water coming through my shirt .with every tear from my girl , a new thread on my heart was pulled .

after a while i feel her body slump even more and her legs start to shake and i knew she just needed sleep .i would ask her about it tomorrow,she just needed comfort tonight .i picked her up and her sobs became quieter but her breathing was still all over .i took her into her bedroom and noticed all her clothes on the floor and her phone threw off the bed .i let her down and tucked her in and then was walking into her bathroom when i heard a very stuttering and quiet .

"s-stay"i hear her wail and there goes another heart string .i sigh and come back over to the end of the bed and strip into my boxers and turn off the lamp and crawl in the bed . after i look at her face for a while i see her lift her head from the pillow and she takes off her robe so she naked but i keep my eyes on her face .she then moved closer to me and tried to get on top of me and kiss and but i gently moved her to the side .she didn't take this well and she came to my neck and began sucking on it .no matter how hard i am right now ,now it not the time .i push her face away softy and she sits up .it's hard not to look at her right now but i don't .

"s-see you think i'm ugly and fat too "she said and started crying again .as soon as i heard these words fall out of her mouth i immediately turned my head from the wall straight to her eyes and i furry my eyebrows in confusion and sit up and put her hands in mine .

"what are you taking about taylor ?,have you ever seen yourself in a mirror "i said and wiped her tears with my thumb .

"yes i have seen a mirror ,and i hate it "she said and i was just utterly confused .i had no idea she felt like this .

"well i see you all the time and i happen to think your the hottest ,most beautiful woman i have ever seen in my whole 33 years of living " i said and she
swatted my hand away .

"dont lie to me "she said under her breath .

"i do not lie " i said firmly .

"well why are you lying now then "she said and picked off her phone from the floor and the light beamed on to my face and i squinted my eyes ,adjusting to the light .that's when i saw the headline and the photos and the comments .jesus .i didn't know people were like this .and i didn't know how thin she was .

i took her phone from her hand and deleted the post from her feed .

"all bullshit "i said and put her phone on the beside table .

"i haven't felt like this in so long ..why is this happening now "she said and looked up at me with vulnerability.

"i don't know taylor ..i really don't know how someone who looks like you could ever doubt their beauty "i said and held her hands firmly .

"well i have ..well do i guess "she said trailing off at the end .

"i'm the one who loves you and i'm telling you ,you are so so so beautiful " i said .her eyes widened in shock and her lips parted .

"you ..you love me "she said .
i didn't even realise i had said that .but it is true .

"more than anything ,even more then my moustache " i said and even got a laugh between tears .

"i love you too "she said and leant forward and kissed me softly on the lips .
we lay down and i brought her as close and humanly possible to me and kissed her head and whispered a million times .

"your gorgeous,i love you "

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i know it started sad but atleast we got that happy ending !!