the nfl guy

why didn't you tell me ??

travis'  pov :

i am staying at jason's tonight .me him and kylie have a movie night once a month and the kids stay at my mums .taylor is in mexico for 2 nights ,well it's the second one tonight .and then im going to new york to see her for a weekend .

"okay you get the popcorn i'll get the beer "i shouted from the kitchen to kylie .jason was already sat on the couch ready .

after we had all our snacks jason turned on the tv and went on netflix .when we came across taylor's documentary again .

"hey !i didnt know she had a documentary "kylie said and pointed at the tv .

"yeah me neither till a couple weeks ago "i said taking a sip of my beer .

"so is it good ?"jason asked hovering over it .

"i don't know ,haven't seen it "i said and opened a bag of popcorn .

"do you want to ?"jason asked curiously.

"hm i don't know ..she said she didn't want me to
"i said debating the choice in my mind .

"well do you wanna just watch the  trailer and see what it's all about "kylie asked .

"yeah ..i don't see why not "i said and sat back .

it showed clips of little taylor that made me
smile ,some performances,little behind the scenes .it looks fun ??why not see more of her .

"that looks fun !"jason said and smiled after the trailer .

"okay..let's watch it "i said hesitantly .

the first thing that popped up at the top was language and ..sexual violence ??maybe it's not taylor .it's not her.i told myself as it began to play .i don't think jason and kylie even picked up on it .

as it played i giggled to myself seeing olivia walking across the piano and just smiled at her talking and reading old diaries .

it showed clips of her with her little guitar and her politeness still the same .why didn't she want me to watch this ??i mean it did have some little dark bits about handling the fame that made me a little sad but she's already talked to me about that .

"this is really interesting,why didnt she want you to watch it ?"kylie looked at me and asked .

"i'm not sure ..she said it made her cringe "i said and shrugged my shoulders .

it carried on playing until it showed a clip of her leaving her house and outside was hundreds of people .

"wow "jason said .

"yeah"i said .

then she started talking and when she said "i don't like looking at pictures of myself everyday "i knew what it was talking about .i had flashbacks to when she was sobbing and crying about being ugly.

she went into detail about starving herself and my eyes couldn't get off the screen as it shows clips of her that break my heart .

"we should  turn this off "kylie said and grabbed the remote .

"no, no "i said still not taking my eyes off it .

it only got darker then on .it was people just slut shaming and then kanye writing a disgusting lyric and then it got a bit happier with the writing process of things .then sunk to the lowest .

"taylor swift ,the singer goes to court today .against a former radio dj she says once groaped her "echoed through my ears .

then a picture came up and i took one look at his hand and her face and looked away .i could just hear her talking about it and then hear her mum crying
and i took the remote and turned it off .

"travis .."jason said .

"let's not talk about it "i said firmly .

"d- did you know ?"kylie asked .

"no ,no i didn't not " i said .

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sorry for the dark side but it's gonna have a pt 2