What Heart Wants

-Hey!

Hey.

It took me a lot of courage to come up with this. I am not actually sure if it is even the right decision but that matters less than my need to say this.

I have been struggling from a very long time. It started as little, I had my own momemts of up and down and I thought I was doing fine until last few months? Or weeks you can say. It is more like I was hanging by a loose thread that has finally snapped and I have fallen down to my lowest. The worst part is, I do not know how to get up now.

I am not here to share my sob story but just to inform the reason behind me suddenly disappearing.

Two weeks back, I wrote a note in my drafts which was actually about the book, discussing the characters or the plot but now my mind is blank, and I don't know what I think of my own words that I wrote so I guess that note will have to wait.

The updates will have to wait as well. There are few left in this book and I will make them quick, just not now. I do not think I am in the right state of mind to write anything and ruining my books is the last thing I would want to feel guilty of.

I am trying my best to get my life back to track, and I hope it won't take me long. This is really haunting to lay out like this, but I hope you people will be understanding enough to wait.

I am so embarrassed because I keep asking you all to wait, I keep making you guys wait and I disappear all of the sudden. But please understand, life has not been kind to me past few months and even when I try my best, things don't work out my way so I am left helpless at times.

I am doing better though. Today was good, tomorrow will be too, hopefully.

That being said, please do take care of yourself. Mental health is so much important. If you are not feeling good, please reach out to someone, anyone. Love yourself, smile, be happy because you deserve it. Please take care.

Last, thankyou, and I am really sorry for being so irregular and irresponsible. I will also reply soon to everyone who has texted me and I could not reach back.

That's all for today, have a nice day everyone✨