Maybe in another life

💫-the friendship-💫

For context, we are the character we used to play in a certain game. This is not really related to undertale aus except for the character. I will be mixing up real events and imaginary one.

I will be dream / 'text'
My friend/child will be error / "text"
And my old friend will be swapfell /
,text,

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I was walking to snowdin, ready for a meet up with error and swapfell, we've all been really busy with missions and personal problems so this was probably a good occasion to see them again, before everyone went back to their job.

As I walked closer of the meet up point, I saw them both, just playing around and running after eachother.
I loved how silly they were waiting for me, I joined them and shouted loudly 'BOOOO!'.

They screamed and looked at me startled, as I giggled.

"That's not funny Dream! You scared us!!"

'That was the point of screaming hehe'

,Stillll-,

'Oh come on guys! It was just a little hi surprise! Beside you must be missing me too much to care 😋'

"Maybe..probably... Well yeah we missed you."

'Knew it.'

,Oh hush..,

I giggled more at them, before embracing them into a tight hug.
They didn't resist it and hugged me back, and swapfell as always was squeezed between me and error.
I missed them so much! But as I was hugging them, I felt a wave of negativity and, honestly, it was really heavy negativity. I let go of them and, before running into a portal told them I had to go.

"Wait drea-"

,dont, she need to go.. We'll see her later probably don't worry. She always comes back anyway!,

"Yeah.. She always come back.."

They both went back to being silly for a bit before leaving back to their home and occupation.

This went on for like a good few months. Everything was perfect, our relation was getting better and we all had more time to be together.
But, one day, he didn't come to the meeting. I and error were both a little worried but thinking he just had something planned of problem in his au, so we shrugged the worry off.

This went on for 3 weeks. He didn't come for three weeks. So we got worried again and contacted people he knew, but nobody had info on him. We were both really worried and devastated at this point.

I didn't know this would be the last time for now.. I just thought it was a little nothing.. For a little while..

Days. Weeks and months went by. We had absolutely no news of swapfell for now way too long than my heart could handle.

As me and error met up again, I stared at him for a bit before just going to hug him tightly and breaking down in his arms. I never cried this loudly in my life..
He hugged me back and tried to soothe me, he was as worried and hurt as me but he kept calm for the sake of my mental statut right now.

As I calmed down we talked, we tried to make time pass, everything to help heal our aching heart, everything was triggering to me. Memories were overflowing.

We gave up with searching and waited. But nothing happened obviously. I kept getting more hurt emotionally. As error had to suffer both swapfell's diss appearance and my breakdowns.

It kept going on, for so long. It's been almost a year. Error have been so distant with me since he gave up.. And I became depressive and alcoholic. My mental health just went downhill. I had lost everything.
Both my bestfriends were gone, I was lost, tired and deceived of life and how cruel it was.

I decided to write an anonymous letter to error, and invited him to meet up at snowdin. Like we used to.

I waited near the big Christmas tree in the middle of the town, until I saw him, and he saw me too. We made eye contact for a good 5 minute before I walked toward him.

"..Dream?"

'.. Hi'

He suddenly hugged me tighly.

"I.. I missed you..."

'.. I missed you too error..'

We both were quite quiet. Just hugging and enjoying the fact we were together again.

"..how have you been dream..?"

'....'

"Dream..? Hey answer me.."

I breaked down in his arms and nuzzled his neck, I missed him so much, he hugged me tighter and rubbed my back soothingly.

"It's okay dream.. It's okay.. I'm here.. Shhh..."

'I-i.. Sw-wapf-ell-.. I-.. Y-ou-u..'

"Shh.. It'll be okay.. We'll find him.. Perhaps I could search new aus/areas..? (Getting info)"

'D-dont... Lea-ve me lik-e him-.. Pl-eas-se..!-'

"I'm not leaving you.."

He passed a good 30 minutes comforting me and cuddling me.
I invited him to my house so we could talk and calm down both better. I took him there and as we talked, he realised something definitely was off. My house was obviously much messier and dirty due to the depression. But it was filled with bottles. Alcohol bottles. And a lot of them a bit everywhere.
He seemed obviously very worried. He asked me about it and I tried to push the subject away. He let it slide and told me he had a nice time being here but he had to go.

I let him go feeling a little pain in my heart, scared of being alone again.

-time skip of a few days-

Error came to check up on me. This was the worst timing ever to come. I was in the kitchen with with the knives and sl/tt/ng my wrist. I dont know why but it made me feel alive.
As he came in the house and saw me, he rushed over and slapped the knife out of my hand, he took my arms and healed my wounds. I looked down in shame, and stared at the floor. He then picked me up and went to my room. He put me down on my bed and kissed my head, then left.

I woke up the next day and felt really uncomfortable, I never felt this way in my own bed before. I decided to get up and just go to one of the old meet up place we had with error and.. Him. Surprisingly he was there watching the fountain we used to play in, splashing eachothers like kids.

I decided to hug him by behind. I never felt so warm and safe in a hug.
He didn't seem to react to it but he definitely realised I was there. I snuggled him and cuddled him, no reaction. I asked him if he was okay and I finally got my answer.

*sigh* "I don't know. The memories hurt. I can see him everywhere we went."

'I know.. B-but you got me still..! So it's okay!..'

"I guess you're right.. I got you.."

At these words, he hugged me tight and cuddled me. But... he pushed me in the damn fountain.

"Hahggahehaah!! Got you!!"

'YOU-'

I got up and splashed him, and he splashed back, we kept playing like this for a good hour, before I got out of the fountain, I probably got sick tho cause I was shivering. Error sat down on a bench and put me on his lap, covered me with his jacket and cuddled me to warm me up. I felt warm.. Comfortable and so safe.. Soothed.. I enjoyed the attention and fell asleep in his arms.