Desire (Book 1 of the Desire Series) {Bucky Barnes}

Chapter 18: Bucky's Secret Revealed

My heart drops into my stomach. I'm wondering if I heard Tony right. I look at Bucky to see him leaving the room.

"Bucky did not kill your parents," Steve says. Tony looks at me with concern. 

"Liz, you may wanna leave the room for this," Tony says. I look at him confused.

"No I wanna stay please," I say softly. Tony sighs playing a video on the monitor. 

A sob escaped my lips as I watched the video. Steve walks over to me but Tony shoves him away from us. 

"Stay the fuck away from us!" Tony yells. Tony pulls me into his arms as I sob. "It's okay Lizzy." Tony hugs me tightly as I sob loudly. I feel my knees give out and Tony lowers us both to the ground.

"How long have you known that about Bucky?" I ask him as tears flow down my face.

"About a month. I found the footage while you were gone. I would have told you but Fury said for your safety I couldn't call or message you," Tony says. I pull away looking at him.

"Can I just go to my room and be alone for a little bit?" I say softly. Tony looks at me before wiping my tears. 

"Of course, but I will be sending either Sam, Nat, or myself to check on you," Tony says before kissing my head. I wipe my tears before leaving the meeting room. I look up to see Steve and Bucky sitting on the chairs outside of the meeting room. Bucky had tears streaming down his face and Steve looked up at me and stood up. 

"Liz, can I please talk to you?" Steve says. He walks towards me but I put my hand up to stop him. 

"Did you know?" I ask him, my voice wavering as I speak. Steve looked down giving me the answer but I wanted to hear it for myself.

"Yes, I did," Steve says. Of course, Steve knew, he was Bucky's best friend. But why would he tell Tony or me? I thought Tony and Steve were like brothers. Hell, I thought of Steve as an older brother. Tears stream down my face uncontrollably. "But Liz, you of all people should understand that it wasn't actually him." I look at Steve and then at Bucky. Bucky looks so broken as he looks back at me. 

"Oh Bucky," I mumble. I look at Steve. "Yes, I do know it actually wasn't him, it was HYDRA. But the fact that two people I trusted didn't tell my boyfriend killed my parents hurts. A guy who I thought of as my older brother didn't tell me. A guy who I love so damn much and I thought loved me, didn't tell me." Bucky stands up.

"I do love you!" Bucky says he looks at me in disbelief like he couldn't actually believe that I would actually think that he didn't love me. I sigh before walking off and rushing to my room. As soon as I reached my room, I broke. I started sobbing hysterically lying in bed. 

***
It must have been a few hours later when I heard a knock on the door. Tears were still streaming down my face but I wiped them off sitting up. 

"Come in," I say softly. My door opens to reveal Sam with two mugs in his hands, he shuts the door behind him. 

"I heard what happened and I know tea isn't gonna really help fix the problem but it should help you calm down a little bit," Sam says softly. I smile gratefully taking a mug as he hands me one sitting down next to me.

"Thank you, Sam," I say softly. 

"Do you wanna talk about it?" Sam asks. 

"Not really. But could you just stay with me? I don't really be alone right now," I say softly. Sam smiles wrapping an arm around me. I sip on my tea slowly.

"Of course. We can just sit here in silence if you want to," Sam says as we both finish our tea. Sam takes my mug and sets them both on the nightstand as I lay down. Sam starts to get up but I grab his hand stopping him. 

"No stay please," I say as Sam nods lying down next to me. I lay my head on his chest and wraps a blanket around me. He holds me playing with my hair. Suddenly I'm off into a deep slumber.

***

A knock startles me out of my slumber. I sit up in a jolt as the door opens to reveal Nat with a bowl of soup. She walks over to me handing me the tray with the soup. I look at it stirring it continuously not really being hungry. Nat sits next to me.

"I know you don't feel like eating but you need to eat honey. You haven't really eaten all day hun," she says. I sigh as she's right. I grab my spoon taking small bites. After a couple of bites, I couldn't eat anymore. "That's good enough hun, you don't need to eat a lot." She grabs my bowl setting it aside. 

"I know it actually was really Bucky. I mean I know that because I have been under HYDRA's control like him," I say as Nat looks at me. "But why wouldn't Steve and Bucky tell Tony and I?"

"Maybe Bucky wasn't ready. Telling you would mean he would lose you, and Bucky wasn't ready to lose you," Nat says softly.

"He's not gonna lose me at all," I say softly. As the door opens to reveal Tony. 

"Hey, Lizzy. Nat, can I be alone with her for a few minutes?" Tony asks softly. Nat nods giving me a hug and walks out shutting the door behind her.

"Hi Tony," I say.

"So what are you gonna do about Bucky and your relationship?" Tony asks. Honestly, since the whole incident, I haven't even given the thought of what was next for Bucky and I's relationship. I honestly don't even know if I was ready to even look or even talk to him. I just need the time to understand what I just heard. How many times does someone ever get told that their boyfriend killed her parents? Almost never. No one ever prepares you for that. I know I wasn't. But I was definitely not prepared for what Tony said next.

"You need to break up with him."