Unexpected Love

Cupid's Queue

I start to think *Hm..girls are pretty..are boys pretty? I like the way they smile..* (like guys are cute? No I'm straight for sure! But I'm not even ready for a girlfriend or a boy-) "MAX! WERE YOU LISTENING TO ANYTHING I SAID??", "h-huh? Coach..", "DROP DOWN AND GIVE ME 20". All the other boys look at me, and I start to blush a hot pink, 'you heard him!' one boy says, I shyly get up embarrassed. "I was listening sir. I swear!", "What did I say then?" I look down and try to jog my memories but nothing. Sweat falls down my head, "Game Thursday?" he rolls his eyes, "20 RIGHT NOW!", I Get on my knees and start to do my push-ups. The other boys in the room start to laugh. I do the push-ups fast and I quickly calm myself and sit back down on the floor. "Can someone remind our friend Max here what I said?", Darron looks over at me and speaks up "He said that we get out of class at 3:30 today for a game", I thank him and I nod my head, he does the same. When we finished practice I stopped by my locker to get my books for the next class. My half sweaty hair gets in the way of my vision and I couldn't see the time. I hear Hope walking behind me. Hope and I dated in the summer, but we did not last long she was not the one for me. We were awkward as hell plus I think she was talking to someone while we dated. Am I ready to date? maybe I am but I don't even know Hope kinda crushed dating for me. "hey Max" I look over it is Sam, Olivia, And Abby. I wave over at them and they start to laugh. Olivia is really pretty, with her brown wavy hair and her curvy body. I take a Glance over at sam, his dyed dark red hair shines in the light. He's the only gay guy at my school other than those weirdo's. The thoughts about dating guys keep popping up in my head. I mean I can experiment, right? High school is honestly tough. When I walk into my first hour the teacher says we have free time so I go on my phone. I snap my friends and text a couple of them, Darron shoots a text.

Darron: people keep talking about the coach yelling at you

Max (me): ya I know it's so embarrassing

Darron: I heard Olivia talking about it

Max (me): Ugh it's fine

Darron: Ight see you later

I put down my phone and stare at the wall for a couple of minutes. I start to zone out and think about sam.. wait sam? No, I like girls. I shake my head and start to think about Olivia instead of sam. Mm, this is much better. Girls are much better! Or are they? This is probably just a phase of some sort, Plus I'm Christian I have to like girls. Then also my whole life I've been taught my to love girls and not boys. It's not like I'm homophobic at all. I don't hate gay people it's just if I were gay I would get bullied or some sort of. I feel like people who make fun of gays just don't know their place in life, they just follow society's expectations, in this case, teenage boy rules. they make most of the expectations at school. Most guys just want to hook up with girls at my school but I don't want to, I just want somebody to love. I want to cuddle, go to a pumpkin patch, sit in a field, and have a picnic, I dreamt of this but I know I have to focus on school before that.

When school is over I walk to my car and start to drive when I see Sam and Olivia again walking, both of them look so pretty... No! only Olivia does, I stop the car to calm myself down. Darron calls me, "Hey, are you coming with us on the bus or your own?" Darron asked, "on my own" I answered. I see sam and Olivia walking off and I start to get the feelings Again.