SHE

MOTHER FEELINGS

Everything happened too fast for HER.

In one second HER team had still equal points than the others, in the other, the last ball flew through the basket, the game was over and they had won.

They had run up to HER and then a black girl which was for sure two heads taller than her - her name was Talisha- just had " the guts" to lift HER up and spin HER around.

SHE got lifted up in the air, or collected a group hug quiet often in the past.

Always from the whole team and never just from one team member - Exclusiveness in public was always reserved for him-.

But when Talisha ran up to HER, SHE just acted on HER very primal instinct and opened the arms for the tall black girl, even though SHE had no idea what to expect next.

The only thing SHE did foresee were her intense emotions of pure joy and love for Talisha and the certainty that she wanted that hug from the very core of her heart .

Maybe SHE did wrong, maybe SHE wasn't supposed to have this kind of feelings forward one of her protégées and should have focused already years ago on building HER own small family with him, Maybe SHE should have never created such a personal report between her and the girls.

SHE suddenly realized SHE had fucked up a long time ago.

It all started, when Talisha had searched her support and advise for personal matters and they had sat awake at the dining table past one a.m. because she desperately wanted a solution for her problems.

Not that they would have done it for any member of the team, but she should have noticed the change in HERSELF already at this point.

They, SHE was a fucking professional.

But the personal story of Talisha and the spicy, explosive but humble character of the girl had wrapped HER around HER little finger and had shaken HER heart to the core.

The only thing she could have done back then, was to just throw her out of the team and distance herself from the girl. But for that she was too good with the basketball in her hands.

Slowly SHE tightened her grip around the girl with her arms and her hands and her legs and a bright, big smile grew on her face.

SHE was so proud of them, of HER! They had won the national championship and had played their team to success.

Of course HER lead as a coach was essential for their journey, but the moment they went on the field SHE could do nothing more than to " sit down" with HER high heels in HER typical deep - squart position and pray, that HER girls, that Talisha would give everything to win.

There were ups and downs and jet they finally reached their goal!

The moment she was put down on earth from Talisha again, she caught his eyes and let her gaze remain -a felt eternity-on his, before she focused on the group hug and on the team again

This encounter was enough... he had seen and realized everything.

He had realized her body language the moment SHE was lifted up by that one black girl - her name was Talisha, if he remembers correctly-.

He had realized her expressions of pure joy and love mixed with the enthusiasm that they actually won the regionals.

He had seen how HER arms and legs wrapped around the girl an how SHE had closed HER eyes to just enjoy the intimacy and strong emotions of the moment.

And he just stood there, not knowing what he was allowed to feel...