Am I dreaming

Josh!

We arrived at an abandoned building, me and Tom didn't speak the whole car ride. Gustav and Georg were there with some other girls, girls I hadn't seen before. I waited for Tom to get out of the car, I then opened his glove box and pulled out a pack of cigs. I got out the car and lit one, Tom walked over to the others and then started talking to the other girls. He was getting all touchy with one skimpy blonde, he was grabbing her ass and thighs. I hated Tom but I felt so much jealousy I couldn't control myself. I just looked away and continued to puff on my cig, then bills car pulled up. I looked into the window but I couldn't see Lexi. I looked more and more untill I saw her head pop up from bills lap. I looked away in horror then I heard the other boys laughing, I looked over and they were all looking at my face. I could help but laugh too, it was an awkward laugh but a genuine laugh. Tom then walked over and put his arm around me.

"Lexi's so surprising sometimes" he laughed
"I know I feel disgusted" I laughed back as I nestled into his chest
"You only meant to do that in a bed for goodness sakes" Tom was now laughing hard and so was I
"I know" I dragged in the w because I was laughing so much. Then four black SUVs pulled up, toms arm pulled away and he pushed me behind him. I put his hand on his gun and just looked at the others who did pretty much the same. I felt my heart beat increase and I felt beads of sweat run down my back, I had that skimpy dress on that Tom forced me to wear. I had a cold breeze on my back but I was still sweating. I felt very nauseous like my gut was telling me that something bad is about to happen to me. It might be my nerves running. The men stepped out of the car. No could it be, what surely not. No.
"Josh" I whispered
"What how do you know that" Tom questions me
"Omg it's josh" I cried
"How do you know him" Tom got angry
"It's my brother" I cried

"Abi?" He shouted
"Josh" I said as I walked in front of Tom
"No how why" he paused "Abi you shouldn't be here" he was getting angry
"No Abi why are you here" he shouted. I looked back at Tom who looked sad. I knew what was about to happen, I walked to Josh and hugged him.
"I love you" he said
"Always and forever?" I whispered
"Yes always and forever Abi" he smiled before kissing the top of my head. I walked away and back to toms car, I got in and sat in the back. I couldn't help but cry, I was weeping my little heart out. I knew that my brother was here to get killed. My brother was a thief, I covered my mouth to try to hide my sobs but I couldn't contain it. I knew that they had brought him here because he needed to pay something, I knew it.

*FLASHBACK*

"You own us money Josh"
"You know you can't hide from us" they screamed
"I can't pay all of it" Josh pleaded.
"I can" Abi shouted at the men
"Ahh and how would that be princess"
"I'll do anything" she pleaded "just don't hurt him"
"Anything you say" the man smirked at his friend
"Yes"
"NO" Josh screamed "no don't you dare don't you fucking touch her, I'll kill you" Josh screamed again

But it was too late they had already taken her innocence, she didn't want them to she screamed and cried for them to stop. She had passed out due to the pain.

*END OF FLASH BACK*

She go Josh out of it the first time but she couldn't get him out of it the second time. She couldn't help him. And that's what hurt that's what killed her from the inside out. She could hear shouting then she heard it, that deadly sound. That deadly gunshot, she turned around to see him falling to the ground

"NOO" she screamed "Josh" she cried hysterically. She quickly got out of the car and ran over to him, she sat down next to his dying body she couldn't speak she couldn't move that was it.

TOMS POV

"Come on Abi let's go"I said as I pulled her up by her waist
"Josh" she sobbed
"I know I know" I whispered into her ear. To be honest I felt like a fucking monster you don't get how much I wanted to be dead not Josh. Abi would be so much happier without me. She didn't deserve this, she looked dreadful in the nicest way. She had lost a lot of weight and hadn't eaten in days, her scars were on show the whole night and were bright purple and looked so sore. I couldn't help but let my heart ache and let my body feel bad. She made me feel so many emotions that I've learnt to hide or not feel.

I pulled her into my arms and she grabbed my top pulling it into her head she couldn't help but let out loud whimpers. She had stopped crying, I walked her to the car before we sped home. I knew tonight was one of her hardest nights, and I knew she needed me but I couldn't be there I was the one who shot him I was responsible. It was my fault , I'm better off dead.