Her, my love

Confession

We were studying together in a library. Out of nowhere, a girl suddenly approached us. The girl was really attractive. She has a really round and stunning eyes, cute tiny red lips like the colour of fresh red rose, her eyelashes are long and curly naturally, and she is a slim and tall girl. She talked to Ameer and I could see how Ameer look at her. Not that full-of-lies look, but the look of an admirer. They chatted much and laughed together. I felt deserted there and could not help feeling awkward with the presence of a third person who was much more beautiful.

I went out and made my way to my room. I didn't know why I couldn't stand watching their happiness and laugh and also giggling together. There was nothing funny! Nothing at all! I felt with the utmost disappointment. I hated it when the girl came and sat there talking to Ameer while Ameer ignored me totally.

'Is it possible that Ameer started to fall for her?' 'Ameer is going to be a Casanova again?' 'What are they doing right now?'

"AARGHHH!!" I screamed. All the sickening yet disturbing thoughts came hurling through my mind and it never ended. I was curious.

"Wait....Why did I feel like this? I shouldn't bother him. It's his right to choose the right person he wants to be with. What is wrong with the girl? She's amiable, kind, beautiful and smart. I should be happy."

I tried to calm down myself. I slumped myself on the bed and after several minutes of worrying, I took forty winks before performing my 'Asr prayer.

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"Where were you yesterday? I searched for you like crazy. You went off just like that."

"I don't want to bother you and disturb your time with the girl. Why didn't you tell me about your girlfriend?" I tried to hide my jealousy. He's my friend and between us shouldn't have any special feelings more than a friend.

"She's not my girlfriend. You are my friend so you have to stay there. Know her. Befriend her. She's okay. She's kind and very friendly. You shouldn't be afraid of her." He said calmly.

"She's beautiful, right? Don't you have any feelings towards her?" Still doesn't believe he said that, I asked him.

"Why? Must I have a beautiful girlfriend?"

"Err...it's not that. Even any man would fall for her if they see her face. Plus the charms she has." I was speechless actually. I didn't expect he could answer me like that. He really changed. He didn't care about looks anymore like he used to.

"But, I'm not that man you meant. Okay2, let me be honest. We're working on it." Surrendered, he admitted.

I admitted to myself that I did feel a bit disappointed with his statement. I didn't realise that I pursed my lips. I only realised it when he talked about it which made me feel so ashamed.

"Why is it with that face? Jealous?" he smiled meaningfully at me.

"Of course not! Why would I?" I denied fervently.

"Don't lie."

"NO! I didn't."

"Maybe you forgot something. I was a womanizer. Talented one." He looked through my eyes.

"I didn't forget that. So what? You're proud of it?" I tried to hide my real feeling. I was shaking terribly. His eyes made me wavered much. I felt like my heart was going to explode at that time. My heart was beating so fast.

"I was experienced in these kind of things. I know you. I know how you felt." He said in a really serious voice.

I broke into silence.

"You like me?"

Again, nothing went out from my mouth.

"Honestly, I knew it for quite a long time. So, I tried to test you. That girl yesterday was my cousin. I asked for her help. I wanted to know your real feeling. Why is it so hard to tell?" he asked with a very soft and calming voice.

"So? You're proud of it? What's your motive of doing that? To know my real feeling? To brag to your friends?" I didn't realise that my cheek was wet with tears. I couldn't help it. I felt betrayed.

He shook his head. "Because I feel the same."

Short and full of meaning enough to make my heart blossomed.

"I love you from the moment you helped me. I fall in love with your attitude. I don't care about your looks. I cared for your heart. It's you who made my heart fluttered." For the first time, I believed him so much. Maybe the sincerity in his eyes proved his words. I don't know how I could sense the sincerity. It's just...I did it.

I drew a smile. And from that moment, we started to take serious of our relationship. A month later, we were engaged. We were happy and hoped for it to last until we get married and happy till Jannah.