Broken, an SBI Story

20: Grief, such a 'funny thing'

Hi,
If you think this an authors note and your wondering why it isn't in bold is because this isn't the author. It's your dear narrator, the person who broke 4th walls in the past of this book and pretended to be the author, fun fact if it aint bold it ain't the author.

I know the story front to back, I know everything that goes on in this book. The things that happened in the characters lives before the book.

Have you ever wondered why Phil liked fostering kids so much?

Or why Wilbur felt the need to hide that we was at least a bit fruity from his dad even though he was so comforting?

Ever wondered why Techno was usually so locked up when it came to his emotions?

One more thing before we start,

Have you ever wondered why the world can be so cruel?

I remember the day of my pawpaw's death.It was 3 months ago but I still feel like it was yesterday, I sob like I did as I saw them put his body in the ground, as I did when my mom told me.

I have experienced other loss but my pawpaws was more recent so let's focus on that.

Y'know I remeber my cousin had a baseball game that day. He's young, he played on 10 or 8 y/o. My pawpaw had told him that he was coming to the game.

Me and my aunt (his mom) went to the game to support him even though our whole worlds had just collapsed in on us.

Everyone else in my family stayed behind.

Me and my aunt wore shades to the game so that he wouldn't know we had been crying.

I didn't want him to know because I don't like sympathy and his mom didn't want him to ask why and have to tell him before they got to my grandparents.

He immediately got off the field and looked for my pawpaw.

He then asked where he was.

That would've broke me if I didn't feel the need to stay strong for everyone.

Y'know I really relate to this chapter.

I respect the author for this one.

It's relatable.

Enough about me for one chapter, I might say more later if you'd like.

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Phil sobbed as he looked at the pictures he had out, one of him and his wife Kristen at their wedding.

One of them at a date back when they were in highschool.

There was one of the day they met. They instantly clicked. They met through a friend named Sam, it was his birthday and they were both at the party.

The worst part about someone dying isn't having to hear it, or having to watch their casket get dropped in the ground. It's not even when you kiss them on their forehead or cheek, and they're skin is cold as it's blood is no longer running through it keeping it warm.

It's all the things you never get to do with them.

Phil and Kristin planned on raising the kids together.

They planned on getting to go on their honeymoon in Hawaii.

They wanted to go live on the beach because Kristin loved the sand.

Phil sobbed as he thought of all the plans they never thought to get through.

Some say God is cruel, As a Christian I believe it's a test of faith but it doesn't change how much.