She was supposed to be mine

Chapter 13

Evelin Rose 

As the wind was slowly playng with the flowers. I was focusing on my breathing I just have to relax I just have to breathe. One side of me wants Alex to come to help me and one wants to go home cry to my pilow while listening to sad songs about relationship that never got to a relationship because of a situationship. God Eve what are you even sayng. 

"Ugh." I am mad and sad. "Why God why?" Why are people like that where is comunication, I....I am talking to myslef and people are staring at me. 

"Oh come on, like you never had a breakdown!" They walked away. Someone taped my shoulder, I turned around. It was Alex. 

"What?" I said angry with my hands on my hips.

He was looking at the ground and to the sound of my voice he looked up.

"Firstly I am sorry, secondly what was that?" He asked.

You guys are idiots who can't comunicate and you have some weird ass past that you don't discuss it really pisses me of because it would make my life so much easier if you just suck it up and talk it out it can't be that bad because you are both alive with a good life. So please grow up and fix it before I fix it. That what I thought to myself, what I said was....

"Nothing I just got upset." 

"You sure?" 

"Yes, why did you snap like that?"

"Really, you left our date looking upset and then you don't tell me for who and I find ou from Ashley that it was Nick what do you think?"

"Okay, fair but if I told you that I can't tell you then I just can't okay, I am sorry that you found out like this, but noothing happend that night. Nick is my friend and I help people I care about. I am sorry but you just have to trust me." 

"I know." He said.

"What?" 

"I know nothing happend, but come on put yourself in my shoes it is not easy specially that it is Nick." 

"So you belive me?"

"Yes, I do but it is hard when you are next to him." 

"What do you mean?" 

"I don't know I just get this weir feeling." 

Is he straight up confused about being jelaous.

"I just can't explain I."

I did it I grabed his cheeks I stoped him from talking I kisse Alex but this time on lips. And God it feelt so peacefull but so alive. It feelt right. But my stupid ass just had to say.

"Sorry this... it is probably to soon for this.... I am sorry that I kissed you."

He was loking at me.

"Will you say something?"

"You shouldn't be."

"What?"

"Don't be sorry." He smirked.

"I wanted to kiss you first."

"You what?"

"I wanted to do it first but it is hard when you run away before I get a chance." 

"So we are even now?" I asked.

"Sure, let call it even." 

At that moment Alex huged me, but there was something difreent about that hug it like a fix up hug. Where you just fall into eachother I can't describe it with words. This was the first time where I saw him mad and this was something new.