what the fuck?? • matt sturniolo

35. your biggest fan

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𝗜 𝗚𝗘𝗧 𝗢𝗨𝗧 𝗢𝗙 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗢𝗟𝗢 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗘 𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗦 𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗥, so happy and excited because MATT ASKED TO GO ON A DATE!!

after he did, i was so giddy i couldn't think of anything else, but then we started talking.

we talked, we joked, we laughed, we fell onto the floor in a fit of giggles more than once, and of course, we kissed.

matt's kisses really are something else.

he's unlike anyone i've been with before, and he makes me feel really safe.

maybe it's the fact that he's been through what i've been through, and he gets it. because my family and friends, they try. but they haven't lived it firsthand, and it's harder for them to understand, and that's okay.

i'm not blaming them at all, it's just that sometimes, even though they try, they don't get it right.

but with matt... it's different.

he understands, because he's had the same experiences, and being able to compare anecdotes, and symptoms, and side effects of anxiety, it's something new.

and it's so great.

i get into my car and immediately call malina.

it's been a few days since i've seen her, and she's still here in boston, even though she's leaving in a few days, wich will make me get depressed, not even going to lie.

she picks up on the third ring, and i put her on the car speaker, seeing her from the corner of my eye, as we're on facetime.

"BELLA!" she screams enthusiastically.

i chuckle. "hey, mal." i greet her.

"what's up, hon?" she asks, her eybrows dissapearing into her brunette bangs as she asks the question.

"you want to have lunch?" i ask her. i had breakfast at mcdonald's a few hours ago, but i'm starving again.

"fuck yeah." she says. "come over, i'm home alone."

i nod. "bet. i'll see you in five."

and exactly five minutes later, i'm knocking on malina's door.

she opens it with a wide grin. "BELLS!" she wraps her arms around me almost in a sisterly way.

"MAL!" i scream back. "babe i missed you." i complain as we pull away.

"i know girl. i saw you last night at the party but you were so busy and i was talking to nick almost the whole time." she laughs.

she gestures for me to step inside and closes the door swiftly.

we head over to the living room, where she's prepared a salad and some nachos on the coffee table.

"nick is so obsessed with you and frankly so am i, but he genuenly thinks you're such a good person, which you are." i say, sitting down next to malina on the carpeted floor. "i'm just so happy you guys are friends." i smile.

the girl giggles as she chews on a nacho. "i know, he's so great i needed to be his friend ever since i started watching the triplets." she says.

i put some salad on my plate. "yeah, when did you start watching them, by the way? you never told me." i say, suddenly curious.

"the first video i ever saw of theirs was one that you were in, and you'd posted about it, that's why i watched it, and i've been addicted ever since." she laughs.

i giggle, taking a bite of the salad. "wow. i love that you discovered them from me." i smile.

malina nods. "you heard it here first, i'm your biggest fan." she shrugs comically, grinning.

i break into a huge grin. "i've always been your biggest fan!" i exclaim

she pulls me in for a hug. "stop, i love you so much."

i give her a kiss on the cheek. "i love you too, mal."

we pull apart from the hug and go back to eating, conversation moving easily and swiftly.

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i hang at malina's until it gets dark. it's about 8pm when i get a call.

mattress 😑💗 calling
answer | ignore

i answer the phone with a scream. "MATT!!" i exclaim, happy to see he thought about me.

he laughs his perfect laugh. "hey, bells. i was just wondering, do you want to go for a walk of something?"

after a beat, he adds, "i'm kind of embarassed to say this but i miss you." i can already picture him running his hand though his hair with that cute embarassed blush on his face.

i gasp. "you do?"

he chuckles. "of course i do, you dumbass."

i smile at the nickname. "okay, asshole." i snap back jokingly, not being able to hide my laugh. "i would love to walk with you."

"yaaay!" he exclaims giggling though the phone. "where are you? i'll come pick you up." he offers.

i smile at malina in front of me, uno cards in hand, listening curiously to the conversation. "i'm at malina's place." i inform him.

"alright, i'll see you in fifteen, then." he says.

"perfect. bye matty."

he giggles. "bye, bells."

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UGHHH ME AND WHOO

haven't updated in a week lmao i have so much writer's block 😭

but ANYWAYSSS what's 4 + 4???

ok bye lmaooo ⭐️