Who Am I? (Rewritten)

Numb

I came home after school, i saw my sister Lisa watching a true crime show in the living room. I set down my bags and handed her the car keys as I walked past the living room to the kitchen. I opened the fridge and stared at the food inside it. I wanted to puke just looking at the food.

"What has Mia had to eat today?" I asked Lisa in the other room

"I made her a salad with lemonade" she said not looking away from the tv

"Colby said he's walking home with some friends" I said, grabbing a monster

No response.

I sighed and closed to fridge door. I walked into the living and watching the tv for a few minutes. The image on screen was a black haired girl beating a old woman to death with a hammer. I gagged at the sight of blood and left the room. I went to my room where I laid down on my bed and stared at the ceiling.

Should I tell Lisa about nick? I wondered if she'd be supportive or not. This is the first new friend I've had in years. My thoughts were cut out by the sound of Mia yelling my name. I got up and walked to her room, when I walked in i saw her in the floor curled in a ball. She was crying and one of the mechanics in the room were beeping.

"Shit Mia- wh- what do I do?" I say panicked as I rushed to her side.

"I need to go to the hospital" she said clutching her side.

"Okay" i picked her up and rush out of the room.

The second Lisa saw me carrying Mia she knew something was wrong. Lisa grabbed her keys and rushed to her car unlocking it. I set mia down in the back seat and got in the passenger. Lisa quickly drove to the ER. I picked up Mia and rushed her inside the building. She was coughing like an old man. The nurses rushed to help her.

We weren't aloud to go with Mia, so we had to wait in the lounge. Our little brother was out with friends and not answering his phone. Mom and dad rushed to the er as so as they could. They only let mom and dad in the back. Me and lisa went home after waiting in the er for three hours. When we got home we were both silent.

"What are we going to do when she dies?" I ask look down at myself

"What?" Lisa said looking at me shocked and maybe a little angry

"What are you going to do when Mia dies?" i said walking the dinning room table.

"Why are you saying things like that? She's going to be okay. She has to be okay. If she's not okay that means the world is just as fucked up as people say it is" Lisa said crying.

"Lisa-" I walked to her and pulled her into a hug. Tears filled my ears but u blinked them back. I need to be strong. This family needs me.

I held Lisa in my arms as she cried. She pulled away from the hug and looked me in the eyes. The pain and fear on her face sent a shot through my body.

"I'm so tired Karl. Im so so tired" She sighed and walked away to her room.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I went to my room. I shut the door behind me and sat down on my bed. I pulled out my phone and checked my notifications and noticed a text message from nick. I opened my messages and read the texts.

Nick
Hey man how are you?
You alive?
Karl?
Sorry I'm low-key spamming you
Wanna hang out tomorrow?

I sighed. My body feels numb. I feel numb. I typed a response and turned my phone off. I set it down on my desk and pull my shirt off. I got undressed and put on loss shorts. I laid in my bed staring at the ceiling.

You
Shit sorry! I got distracted by my sister! I'd love to hang out sometime
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