ORPHANS

Chapter 19

"I know Kelly but like how would I tell her that?" Beyoncé sighs out blowing out a breath in frustration. She was currently sitting on her bed on a phone call with Kelly.

Onika had gone downstairs to grab some snacks since they were both planning on starting a series movie together.

"It's going to be so awkward if I tell her, what if she doesn't feel the same way about me?"

Onika with a hand full of snacks pauses in her steps when she hears Beyoncé's voice through the bedroom door.

She doesn't mean to eavesdrop but the next set of words makes her wait on the other side for awhile, "I have a crush on her man! And it's so confusing to me."

"...."

"I don't know. What if she doesn't feel the same way?" Beyoncé groans out, the thought of Onika rejecting her making her feel uneasy.

"But there is. The possibility that she doesn't like me in the same way I like her is there."

"...."

Onika can't help the little smile that rose up to her face.. Beyoncé was gay? Or well bi? Maybe Pan? But whatever she was.. she definitely wasn't straight.

Onika's smile soon turns to a frown almost immediately as it had come.

Beyoncé had a crush on someone and it most definitely wasn't her.

"I mean she's so cute and smart and- stop laughing!" She hears Beyoncé whine on the other side and her heart clenches painfully in her chest.

Beyoncé had found her annoying she was sure. She'd never told her those words before so it obviously means she had a crush on someone else, most likely from school.

Walking back downstairs dejectedly and fighting off the tears already brimming in her eyes she drops the snacks back where she found them.

She didn't want to watch a movie with Beyoncé right now. She just wouldn't be able to bare the emotional turmoil in her.

How could she sit so close to the one person she's had a crush on, in her bed, surrounded by her scent knowing that the girl didn't and would never reciprocate the feelings she had for her?

She goes out to the back porch, taking a seat there watching as the little kids played tag.

They'd asked her to join but she just politely declined not really in the mood to do anything but cry her heart out.

Burying her head in her knees she can't help but let the first tear slip.

She never knew heart break could be this painful.

"It's been twenty minutes already where is she?" Beyoncé asks herself climbing off her bed as she makes her way downstairs.

Kelly had talked her into admitting her feelings and although she was a little scared to do it. She'd decided it was now or never.

Even if Onika didn't feel the same way, that'd be alright too....

Not.

She'd probably end up crying herself into a headache although when no one was around to see her.

Walking into the kitchen she doesn't see her in there but when she looks towards the sliding door, she sees Onika looking towards the children playing.

Her back was facing her so she couldn't really see her face, but she could tell her face was in her knees.

Sliding the door open Beyoncé walks out taking a seat besides the girl, "What are you doing here? I thought we were supposed to be watching a movie?" She asks confused by Onika's sudden change of mood.

She had been the one forcing her to start the series with her and now that she had finally agreed to watching it with her, she suddenly doesn't want to watch it again?

Onika just ignores her looking away.

The kids who are already tired and bored of playing outside decide to go inside to watch tv, now leaving only the two of them outside.

"Are you mad at me?" Beyoncé questions still confused.

Onika doesn't answer yet again but instead she looks towards Beyoncé and the girls confused face makes her want to cry again.

Why didn't Beyoncé like her? Why did she have to have a crush on someone else? Why not her? Why not Onika?

Beyoncé uses her index finger to lift Onika's chin just now noticing how puffy her eyes were.. it looked like she'd been crying.

"Have you been crying?" Beyoncé asks worriedly but Onika doesn't seem to hear her as she's too lost staring into Beyoncé's eyes.

Her bare face looked so pretty under the sun and Onika couldn't help but look towards her lipgloss covered lips.

Onika couldn't help herself as she slowly leans in and before you know it both girls lips are pressed against one another's with Onika's eyes closed, trying to sink in the moment with the thought that Beyoncé could and would never be hers and Beyoncé with wide open eyes completely and utterly shocked.

Onika had kissed her? Onika had her lips on hers? Onika had kissed her?!

And it was exactly everything she'd thought it'd be. The stupid butterflies in her stomach were probably having a field day at the moment.

Her heart was beating palpably fast in her chest like she'd have a cardiac arrest any moment from now but before Beyoncé could really deepen the kiss Onika had pulled back with a sorry expression on her face.

"Wait don't-" It was no use, she'd already left.

Onika had kissed her and left.

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I feel like this chapter is ass but lemme know what y'all think.

I'm gonna finish this book today or tomorrow I'm not sure when.

Anyways...

Thoughts?

Beyoncé?

Onika?

Their kiss?

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