All About You

Chapter 3 - Reality

But is it really true that they were together?

Usual Nadine. I opened my instagram and looked for Shamcey's account. I saw pictures... not just selfies but pictures with Drew.

I saw her last upload of her picture with drew which was eight weeks ago and the caption's "yayyy! One month!Thank you for everything! Always keep in mind that I love you so much! I don't wanna lose you. forever! "

The upload next to that is her selfie. Wow. She is indeed so flawless, so beautiful. Her eyes are defined by her perfect winged liner. Her hair is naturally straight and brown. Her eyes are dark brown. Her outfit? On point. The only thing that bugged me is the caption "easy come, easy go"

Is she referring to Drew?

The weekend ended in just a snap. Monday.

I just ignored the looks given to me by my schoolmates. Walk. Walk. Walk. Act casual.

"Hey Nadine!" oh snap! Drew said. What am I going to say? Am I gonna confront him right now? Am I gonna tell him that I'm going to talk to him later? Or am I gonna act casual as if I don't know anything about Shamcey and him?

I just held his wrist and dragged him near the stock room where no one is loitering and passing by.

"Am I your rebound?" I told him and looked at him straight in his eyes. He can't even look at me.

"N-no! Of-of course not!" He stammered.

OKAY NADINE. PRETEND TO BE BLIND. GO ON.

"Look at me." He still can't look at me

"I said look. at. me ." I told him for the second time and finally he did.

"Look, I'm sorry okay? I didn't mean to-"

I slapped him as hard as I could. I, myself was also surprised with what I have done but he deserves it.

"I should've known."

"Look" he held my shoulders

"I'm sorry. Now, I realized that what I did was wrong. I'm so sorry. I was so selfish. But now, I know that this is real. I like you for real. I love you for real. I love you." He told me

"NO! LET ME GO!" I shouted

"Please. Believe me when I say what I am feeling now is real" He told me, his eyes was begging.

"NO. LET ME GO. NOW."

"At first, my intention was to use you. But now not anymore. I'm so sorry Nadine. I'm sorry please."

"Let. Me. Go."

He finally did and I ran as fast as I could. I went home and changed my clothes. I jogged going to the ocean. I did not even get tired though the ocean's very far from my condo.

I just sat at the seashore. I listened to the calming waves of the ocean. I closed my eyes and rested my back in the sand. I let everything sink in first.

First of all, Nadine you were so head over heels with Drew. Did you ever wonder why Drew was into you that fast? Well he does not even know you even though you were classmates before. Nadine, do you really think that a hot popular guy would just walk in your life and paint colors in your dull and boring life? Really Nadine? Really?

Second, why are you not updated about Drew? You don't even know that Shamcey's his ex. And yet you're telling yourself that you love him already even though you were dating him for two months only? Wow Nadine. Nice move there huh.

Third, well Nadine you are obviously confused with reality and fantasy. I hope you yourself know at least what that means because if not, I really don't know what to tell you for you to wake up.

I controlled my tears fron rolling down my cheeks. I don't deserve to be sad. I don't deserve this. What have I done to get this intense feeling of pain?

I called my boy bestfriend who's always there for me.

"Hey pick me up. Let's go out please, it's been ages since our last jam." I told him as soon as he picked up

"Where are you?" He asked me

"You know where I am John, I know you do."

"Okay I'm on my way."

"Thanks John."

"Yeah see you soon"

John is my boy bestfriend. It indeed feels so good to have a boy bestfriend. No dramas. Everything is fun. Don't get me wrong having a girl bestfriend is also fun. I love Zoey. But a boy bestfriend is different. It's as if when you're with them everything's perfectly fine. And that's why I called him.

I rested my back on the sand while waiting for John. Ten minutes later, he's already there in his usual getup; shorts, sperrys and a printed top.

"Hi Nadine!" He said

"Hello! Thanks for fetching me. I'm not feeling well right now." Okay Nadine keep lying. I just hope that he'll not notice.

"Not feeling well? Inside? Or out?" He smirked. Oh, he knows me too well.

"Whatever John. What are you talking about anyway?" I asked him because duh even Yassi does not know what happened between me and Drew.

"Nothing. I don't know. You just don't look okay. Let's just go." He told me and I followed him to his car. He just drove and spoke nothing. John knows that I need space whenever I'm sad.

"Hey! Where are you taking me to?"

He didn't answer a word. Instead, he gave me a paper bag.

"Change. I'm going to drive you to your school." He told me and stopped at a gasoline station.

"What?! No! I'm not going back there! Just not yet." I handed him the bag

"Wait. Where and how did you get my uniform?" I asked him out of curiosity.

"Spare key. Remember? You gave me a spare key of your room. Go and change. Don't be so affected with him that even your studies will be involved."

"How did you know?" I stammered.

"Just go." He said with authority.

I followed his order and got out of the car. He's right. I shouldn't be this bothered about him. I changed into my uniform. I looked into the paper bag even my hair products are there and also my perfume! John indeed knows me so well. No makeups are in the bag since I don't wear those anyway.

Now's the time to move on. Quickly.