To Love Again

The Solution

Whose letter might that be? I never received something like that before. It's creeping me out. Literally. However, I need to get out of here. Who knows, maybe he/she is just behind the corners. Ugh! Stop thinking things like that, Sunny. It's not good and you have something else to do.

After I put my things inside my locker, I rushed to the preparation room.
When I opened the door, that familiar back caught my eyes and I felt like I want to be eaten by the ground in that moment before he finally see me. But it was too late, he turned around and said, "Oh hey Sunny, good thing you came." He flashed his smile and waved at me.

Oh God! Why on earth this is happening to me?

"Hey Sunny! Why are you still there? Come inside." Ashley said.

I then realized that I was actually not moving in there. I thought I was walking towards the table awhile ago, but then I'm not. Ugh! I hate myself! I looked stupid in front of these people; especially in front of him.

Wait, what? No, no... it was not important. He was not something. He will never be something.

I sat on the corner as usual, and Ashley cut me from my thoughts saying, "Sunny, are you okay? You seem lost?"

I looked at her and said, "Oh yeah, I'm sorry."

And so, the meeting proceeded. And really, I never felt so uncomfortable. I hate it. He was looking at me all the time and it's literally creeping me out.

Maybe he was the one who put the letter on my locker.
Maybe he planned this.
Maybe he talked to Ashley and asked her to talk to me for this.

Ugh! No, this can't be happening. I don't want this.
No.

After an hour, the meeting ended. I actually don't have any idea about the things discussed and I'm so dead. I just nod and nod earlier and ugh! What the hell! Ugh. Never mind. Whatever.

I got my things and slowly walked towards outside.

He caught my arm and said, "Sunny, is everything alright?"

I faced Cloud and said, "Yes."

"Really? What is wrong, tell me."

"Cloud, can you do me a favor?" I asked seriously.

"Oh yes, what is it?"

"Can you..." I sighed.

"What?"

"I'm sorry but can we be just like before? Strangers? You not talking to me and I not talking to you?"

"Why? Is there something wrong? Am I creeping you out? Don't you like me to be your friend?"

"No, no. It's not you. It's me." I said then paused. "Shocks! This is not something like breaking up, I'm sorry but really, the problem is not you. Just please, do me this favor. For the both of us. For the betterment of the society and everything."

"Are you..."

I cut him and said, "Yes, maybe I'm overacting and saying things that are not important. But I'm saying these just because, um, for you to understand that this is important and you have to do it and forget about once in your life, we talked with each other, we somehow knew each other. That's it. So, good bye." I then turned around and walked away.

"Wait, Sunny." He called me but I didn't look back.

This is better. This is for the better.