Before I start I just wanted to say there's lots of mentions of abuse verbal, metal, and physical, there's self harm, suicidal acts, and I think that's it. If this is a concern to you click off this book or scroll all the way down to the end depending on when your reading this. There is slow updates so there might not be another chapter after this.
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I wake up to my alarm at 5:30 am and I have a headache.
"Fuck....I should be dead." I whisper quietly after another failed attempt from overdosing.
I look around my room and see multiple empty bottles of pills everywhere. I sit up while still being covered by my sheets and I slowly get up and walk to my bathroom.
I lock the door and see a bit of blood on the floor and a bloody raser blade and I feel a slight burn on my wrists and thighs.
"I guess I forgot about that." I say while turning on the shower while slowly undressing and getting in.
The water stings extremely bad but I'm used to this feeling. I sigh and start washing my hair and my arms feel extremely heavy.
"Why is it hard to do everyday activities" I think to myself while washing the shampoo out of my hair then putting conditioner in it.
I squeeze some body wash into my hand and slowly rub my arms while washing the dried up blood away. I do the same for my whole body and I rinse the conditioner and body wash off of me.
I feel my hair on my back which is kinda good knowing I'm not fully numb anymore. After a few minutes I turn the shower off and get out, stepping on my bath mat when i get out and i start drying myself off.
After some time I walk out of my bathroom and put on undergarments and a gray joji sweatshirt and some black jeans that are baggy so they don't rub on my cuts as much.
I hear a bit of yelling from downstairs as I brush my damp hair out.
"God there arguing again, It's not even 6 am."
I put on some black no show socks and black converse then throw my bag over my shoulder and leave the house discreetly.
I run down the sidewalk to escape from my neighborhood and while I'm doing that I bump into someone and fall down.
"Shit I'm so sorry." I say apologizing to the person I bumped into.
"Your good" the voice sounds masculine and then I realize it's Lee knows.
Great the one person I always try to avoid. Lee know, my bully. Although it's kinda comforting having him interact with me everyday even if it's bad. After all I can't ignore my feelings for him anymore.
I get up and try to walk ahead of him but Lee know grabs my hoodie sleeves.
"Wait y/n?" He says in a soft tone which isn't normal for him.
I stop walking and turn around to face him.
"Yes Lee know?" I say and tiredness is reflected off of my voice while the yelling of my parents is in the background.
"You seem a bit more.....drained.... Then normal, are you feeling okay?" He says walking a bit closer to me and he puts his hand on my shoulder.
I feel myself crack a bit and I pull him into a hug.
"No, I'm really not okay." I say with tears falling down my cheeks.
Lee know wraps his arms around my waist while softly pressing his chin to the top of my head. He's slowly rubbing my back with his hand while one is still on my waist.
"It's gonna be okay" Lee know says in a comforting tone.
I nod yes while still crying into his chest and I have a overwhelming amount of guilt built up for no reason really.
Lee know is running his fingers through my hair and softly kissing my head although I've never seen him do this before with anyone for the fact of the matter.
After a few minutes he picks me up and I wrap my legs around his waist with my arms around his neck and I have my head on his shoulder as in still trying to calm my breathing down.
"It's okay, I know your going through shit right now but if you ever need someone to comfort you, I'll always be here for you.", Lee know whispers in my ear softly while burying his face in my neck.
I slowly run my fingers through his hair and put my face close to his head, getting the scent of his shampoo which smells surprisingly good. Don't know why but it just does.
Time skip a few weeks
Me and Lee know have gotten close which is kinda weird debating he literally used to bully me but I don't really mind it because I like him overly to much.
I mean he probably only wants to be friends but I want something more although I don't think he does which is a pretty sad thought considering I've liked him for months.
While I was stuck in my thoughts I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to see Lee know.
"Sup?", I say to Lee know wanting to know what he needed.
"I really need to tell you something really really really important and I'm not taking no for an answer on this.", he says in a kinda winey tone but also serious tone.
"What is it that's so important?", I respond now turning fully around to face him.
"I like you like a lot and I wanted to know if you wanted to be more then friends if not that's fi-", the yap fest gets cut off.
I have my hand on his cheek and I softly pressed my lips against him to stop his yapping but also because I really do like him.
I feel his arms go around my waist and he pulls me closer so now both of our bodies are pressed together and it feels like we're the only people in the whole world or just school.
"I like you too.", I say softly after breaking the kiss.
"Please be my girlfriend, I love you so much and I'll treat you the best I ever can.", Lee know says and it's kinda like he's begging.
"Of course, I love you to."
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I've had this in drafts for almost a month now and I was thinking about deleting it but this idea came up to me while I was on character ai and i wrote this down on paper but it was seungmin and he was a tutor.
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Short Storythis is a continuation of my other book on my other account Hanjisungslyrics because I forgot my password and I got logged out. still the same girl and the same rules apply. also this is still my first book technically because I'm just starting off...
