Reflection..

Some days, i feel good, i feel like i am getting better, stronger and start noticing all the progress that i have achieved until now.

But then, i suddenly step on the wrong tile and the ground opens wide and swallows me into deep darkness.

I try to find any shadow to know if there is some light somewhere, but all i witness is a reflection of myself staring at me, showing me all the progress i ruined, all the effort that i couldn't protect from that demon inside my mind.

I look back at that reflection, confused, as it shifts into a painful truth of the consequences of my mistakes.
My family crying, sadness in their eyes all because of me.
I fall on my knees and cry, begging them to forgive me for not being able to love myself the way they loved me, but once i looked at them, that reflection shifts back to mine.

I am horrified, scared to death, it was no longer me, but the demon living rent free in my head.
I closed my eyes taking a deep breath, accepting my faith of living a life as twisted as this one...

Suddenly, I hear my brother calling me, asking me why am I crying and i thought...Why am i crying?
I looked at him, smiled and said:

- "I am just tired...so tired..."

~KIKS~