The feeling comes and goes, it does tricks to my mind making me believe it is the only way out. Small problems feel immense and big problems feel like it is the end of the world.
I look around me and it feels unreal, i find myself in a huge black hole, sucking me in but i don't try to get out, i just go with it knowing there is no hope in trying to pull myself out of it.
People suicide after experiencing harsh reality, bad influences, huge losses and unbearable pain.
I feel suicidal after experiencing minor problems feeling like i can never get out of it, i overthink every little step, every small move, every look or every situation and my mind over exaggerates the probable situation into a disaster making me want to fall dead immediately.
I am tired of the nonexistent worry i experience every second, the overstimulation of every hormone in my brain, the chaos in my mind and the instability of my emotions.
I sometimes wish i could be like the others, worry less, enjoy more, find solutions instead of breaking down and giving up.
I can only blame my BPD.
~KIKS~
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Reflection..
RandomThis is not a story but more like a way to express my feelings during hard times (or maybe good times one day)
