The lives of 15.

Shyla299

So Hi :P

I am Shyla299, Shyla, Dakota, and Shy.

I am going to tell you a little bit about my life so lets get started ^-^

I was born in a little town of Batesville, Indiana on September 30, 2001. I am the youngest of 4. I have long dirty blonde hair, tan skin, and blue eyes! People from different places in the world would say "Indiana, oh that is were nice people are." I would just laugh and tell them that is not how it is around here in Indiana. Yes Indiana is farm central, but the people on the other hand a lot of them are not nice. Like the kids that live in Milan, Indiana. They are some of the meanest kids I have ever met. I have to say that the MCS or Milan Community Schools are just rude. Now the reason I say the kids are mean at Milan is because I go to Milan. I am one of the girls to get bullied more than people can think of. Anyway lets go ahead and start the hel- I mean school life. Now according to what my mom said when I was younger I was the one to always get in trouble for not doing anything in pre-school. Sadly I was the tallest kid in my pre-school. Oh by the way I am 5'7 1/2. Anyway my kindergarten year was hell. I found out the guy I liked was actually my cousin. The bullying started on the second day of kindergarten and it was because of how fat I was. I tried to ignore it and then a girl that hated me and still does broke my hand for no reason, but then 1st grade came along and it was because of how ugly I was. I then realized that life was turning bad quickly, because just a couple of months ago my old Uncle Josh went to jail for things that he did to me when I was 5. Now 1st grade was the worst year for me because my mom gave me a mullet for the yearbook picture... Thanks Mom.. 2nd grade came along and I realized how terrible life was for me. My parents told me that I was a mistake, I hadn't been eating all that much anymore, and that was the time I started to try and kill myself. 3rd grade came along and really all of my friends I had just stopped being my friend, expect the guy that I started dating. Dylan. I thought that he had turned my life back around, but people kept telling me that he didn't love me. 4th grade came around and I realized how much Dylan really didn't care about me anymore and I broke up with him... That was the worst mistake I ever did. Later that day when I broke up with Dylan went home and killed himself... There isn't a day where I don't think about Dylan. He was my best friend. 5th grade came along and well people started to notice that I had scars and I really didn't eat anymore. I lost all of my friends, and then the girl I still don't know why she did it to me, but her and another person were saying that I asked her out and how I was a lesbian... Everything from there just hurt. My librarian at the time asked why I was always sad. I eventually told her what happened and she then found out who was the 2 people that did it I was hurt and I couldn't trust him for a long time. The second person was my cousin Austin. I never hated my cousin so much. Now 6th grade was when I started to get friends again. I met my best friends Nicole, Mikayla, and Katelyn. I had a guy friend who I count as a brother to me. Blake. He is going through the same thing as me, but not as worse. He actually has friends. I then met the new kid at my school and we instantly started dating because we felt a connection. After a couple of months I realized that Tristen didn't love me, but he liked my old best friend from pre-school. Ashley. I met a guy that I loved and his name was John. I realized after that we started dating all he wanted from me was sex. He tried to rape me, but so did my 2 uncles, but only my Uncle Josh succeeded. John went to jail for a year. Now for the summer before 7th grade. I met some people I am glad to call my best friends. Plus I met a girl who I actually do love if she does notice and her name is Allie. I was afraid to tell anybody I was bi because they would just pick on me more. Then 16 days before my 13th birthday I met a guy that I loved more than anybody. I loved him more than Sam, who I started dating at the end of my 6th grade year. On my birthday the guy that was a live streamer threw me a birthday stream, and we played Cards Against Humanity. His name was Xavier. I felt everything go back to normal, I was becoming a girl I wanted to be. I then started to write a fanfiction about him that is called X Marks The Spot. I then realized that I did some stupid stuff. I broke up with the guy that I actually did love for a guy who doesn't even love me. Around Christmas I was going to get back together with Sam, but then the guy told me that he liked me more as a friend, but that we couldn't date, because of age and states. I was heartbroken. He flirted with me everyday until I started cutting again and trying to kill myself again. He was very upset. He told me to go ahead and kill myself it is not my life you are letting go, but just remember who will miss you and who actually wants to accomplish their promises and meet you. I stopped for about a month. In that month I started dating Allie. I then broke up with her because I didn't know what to do with my life anymore. I began my cutting, not eating, and trying to kill myself again. After spring break I realized who I wanted to be with. I wanted to be with Sam, but I also wanted to be with Allie. I started dating Sam and right now I should be happy, but I'm not. I hope 8th grade is going to be better. :/

Hope you enjoy the song it is from my favorite tv show. :/

-Shyla299