In His Room

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For the past 2 years the friendship that had started between me and jay had grown to love. Every day when Jay would arrive home from school, he would walk right up the stairs and wait for dark, the time when he was able to see me as a real person and not a bloody ghost. In his bedroom we hold each other tight lost in thought and happy to enjoy each other in the rare moments that we get. We stay up all night together, but when the morning comes, he has to leave for school, a moment that I dread daily.

The love we have for each other is love like no other. But the sad part is that I only exist in the dark of his room. It limits us from seeing each other more. I miss him when he's at school I don't get to see him instead I just have to wonder around the room unable to grab anything due to the sad fact of being a spirit I can't do anything until night when the moon is out.

Sitting on his bed I wait and wait until the clock turns 3:00 pm and he arrives home. But that wouldn't be for a while because now it was 8:00 am. I decided to look out the window to pass the time, I see kids playing, neighbors walking and, cars driving, it makes me miss my time alive. A thought that also come to mind a lot is how my love deserves someone who can grow with him and go places with him, not a ghost girl trapped in a room that will forever remain 17. He deserved better and I will find a way to give him just that.

I decided the best way to give him better was to leave him so he can find someone that can give him what he deserves, "But how will I leave him without breaking his heart?" Is a question I found myself asking myself over and over again till I figured it out. Looking out the window I see the neighbors in their back yard. A father, Mother, and kid all playing catch enjoying their time together. That's how I'll do it: I'll tell him that the neighbors caught us, and we can't be together anymore. But that idea worried me, what would he do to the family? I wouldn't have to ask myself questions like this if jay wasn't always reminding me that he would kill to keep me. I love him I truly do but I don't want anyone to die like I did.

My thoughts were cut off by the door to the room opening. It was jay he had just gotten back from school; I was so happy to see him. I ran up to him and hugged him around the neck and he hugged me back per usual but something that I didn't expect him to do was whisper in my ear "without you id bring a shotgun to school, and I will if you want me to for any reason, I hate that you leave when the lights come on and if I had my way the fucking sun would be gone" The words frightened me. Jay was always the type to do whatever was needed to get his way or to make me happy, so much to the point that once his mother's cat jumped up next to us, it frightened me as I've always feared pets, so he twisted its head off at the neck and told me "Look baby, it's bloody, it's gone, it's doomed!" The length that he was willing to take frightened me but it was just his way of showing how much he cared.

As I pulled away from the hug, I decided to tell him about the lie I made up about the neighbor's kid. "I was spotted by the neighbors' kids" I told him "So what does that mean?" he asked me confused. "That means I can't come back now because they know our secret" I regretted to inform him but it was for the best he deserved better. "Unless I can make them keep it" I could feel my gut sink when he said this, I knew what he meant and what he was going to do, and that my chances of talking him out of it were slim. "I don't want anyone to die" I said to him, and it was true I didn't want anyone else to die such as I did. "You know I'll do anything to keep you and taking a life is just a small price to pay for you" He informed me, I love him, but he truly is crazy and now because of me an innocent family will die, all because of a lie I made to give him better.

Before I could even try to talk him out of the idea he was walking over to the closest and pulling down a shotgun and a knife. He was really going to do it he was going to kill them. For me. I tried to old him back but all he did was push me off, "Please nobody needs to die!" I begged but he didn't care he would do anything to keep me, and it showed, he had the shotgun and knife in hand and begin to walk out of the door I was pushed back from being trapped in the room and all I could do now was watch.