My Crazy Life

Just livin'

 After the mall I had to leave Lamar there I just couldn't believe he had a baby and didn't tell me!  We haven't spoken in weeks he keeps calling my phone and leaving voice mails and text messages. I don't know if I should move on or forgive him. It would be hard to to find someone like him me and Lamar had a special bond and that's something I've never had. I don't know what to do at this point I'm so confused. I need to take a hot steamy shower to get things off my mind. I grabbed my pink Nike bra and some boy shorts, tied my hair up, took my clothes off and headed to the bathroom. As I was walking to the bathroom I heard my door opening who the fuck was in my place? I rushed downstairs only to see Lamar with a million shopping bags and a bundle of roses ( my favorite) . I forgot I gave this nigga a key to my place. I just stared at him in shock and I didn't know what to say after weeks of not speaking he's in my house. Lamar dropped everything he had in his hands and grabbed my but my hips " Baby can we just talk this shit ain't right I got a lot to explain ."  Lamar said as his voice began to shake and tears ran down his cheek. " After I take a shower lock my door and pick this stuff up please and thank you " I said pushing him off of me and walking back to the bathroom. I was still in shock but the tears didn't mean much to me. After my long shower I went to my room and on my bed was a coach purse , Nike sweats , some timberlands, Forever 21 lingere and some more cute stuff!  This must of been his way of saying sorry. " Lamar !!" I yelled from my room wondering where the heck he was, " I'm coming baby" he said walkin into my room with a plate of food and a cute little puppy by his feet.  I don't where to start , what should I say? He's acting all natural like nothing's happened. Taking a deep breath I blopped down on my bed and just look in his eyes. " Lamar my body's been acting weird and i don't know how to tell you this but .... "