𝙁𝙭𝙘𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 - Chris Sturniolo

Chapter 31 ↣ be there for me?

It's been a few days, I've spent them mainly with Chris, and he's my favourite company at the moment, but I'm unsure on how much longer he'll be able to keep up with me, especially with finals coming around as well as college applications. I've decided I'm not going to apply this year, it's too much for me.

I'm in my room, cuddling with Chris in my bed, my tv on in the background.
"Hey, if you don't come to school this week I might not be able to see you, I have a lot of homework to do, you are my priority, but I still have an education to get you know", as he smiles.
I haven't mentioned that I haven't returned to school yet. I will soon, just not yet.
My eyes droop, "but Chris I need you" I tell him, he strokes my head. "I know, but you're going to have to try and find some other way to cope, I can't be with you 24/7, as much as I want to."
"But I can't do this without you Chris!" My voice gets higher as I pull away from him.

"And I understand that, but I can't be your comfort all the time, think about your family, you have Janae and your mom and-"
"It's not the same Chris! They're dealing too!"
"I know, and I never said I wouldn't help you, it's just I'm extremely busy at the moment, you have to understand"
"So you're really not going to be there for me, like you promised?" I may have taken that a bit too far, but my emotions are high.
"What? I never said I wouldn't stop being there for you Gia, I just have to balance my time out right. I can't be with you all the time, everyday!"
My eyes are tearing up, I get it, but I need him. Otherwise my head will spiral back down to a dark place.

"You can't leave me!" I say, as my voice breaks down into tears, I didn't think loosing my dad would take such a toll on me, I guess it did.
"I'm not going to leave you Gia" he says, moving closer to me in a gentler tone.
"No" I say, as I stand up, "you're right, I need to deal with it on my own, I can't rely on you, I can't rely on anyone, you should go." I hadn't had a sudden change of heart, I just didn't want to argue with the person who I care for the most.
"What?"
"Yeah, go home, Chris, it's fine" it's not though.
"Are you sure, I mean I-"
"Chris just go!" I yell at him.
"Don't shout at me Gia, I know you're hurt but you know I'm not going anywhere"
"Don't tell me what to do Chris, don't be like this again"
"Like what?"
"Like how you were when we fucking hated eachother! Always telling me what to do!"

I could tell he didn't want to argue with me, but the thing about Chris is that he always has to get in the last word, no matter what. Every time we argued he'd always try and get the last one, just to piss me off.

"Fine then, I'll go", he says it catches me by surprise, because I thought he'd say something worse, before muttering something under his breath, "idiot".
"What did you say?" I ask him, even though I knew. "I said idiot."
I almost crack a smile, because I know he's only joking, but I just roll my eyes and shut the door after he leaves.

I sit on my bed for another two hours, contemplating my life, until I decide to get my shit together and start getting over it as much as I possibly can. I put my AirPods in and clean my room, singing along, forgetting reality. I've decided I'm probably going to have to start going back to school now, besides, I only have a few months left.

I spend my night watching old movies with Janae, with popcorn, obviously, and we have the best time, until it ends.
"I really miss him Gia." She tells me.
"I know, so do I, but we need to find ways to feel happy about it, and be memorable about him in a positive way." I tell her, secretly embodying Chris' advice.
"Who told you that? Chris?" I should've known she would've knew it was Chris that told me that.
I nod my head.
"Is he your boyfriend yet?" She asks me, I haven't really thought about it, so it catches me a bit off guard.
"Um, no, but I'm sure we'll get there eventually" I tell her, and we spend the next half an hour talking, and we agree that we'd both return to school this Wednesday.

Notes
Kind of a filler sorry it's rlly bad bro 😓
My ideas are lacking as this story is almost done but dw! I'm working on another one soon!
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