The nikkah ceremony went very well and everyone enjoyed it fully, exhausted from the all-day event, the family sat down in the living room discussing random things.
"Hamid Kha jaa rhe Ho Bache, betho thodi der" zahra Begum said.
" Nh bijji mujhe khuch zarrori kaam hai, aap log bethe" he answered climbing the stairs, she sighed... she very well knew her younger son's family was disappointed and angry with her, but she couldn't forbid her belief system...or what she has been taught, it's hard for her to change
" sab khuch ache se Ho gya Allah ka sukhar hai" Fatima chirped stirring tea in the pot.
" hmm," Asma replied absentmindedly.
" Asma mein janti Hu tumhe Bura lag rha Hoga, par tum Meri mazboori bhi toh smjho, mein shehnaaz ko smjha doongi"
" Ji bhabhi mein smjhti hu par ek maa ka dil nh smjh paa rha hai, laakh koshisho ke baad bhi, meri shehnaaz dil ki bhut saaf hai aur Maha se toh woh itni mohabbat krti hai uski khushiyon par kabhi nazar nahi lagti, khair aap pressan na hoye, samajdhar hai woh apse koi gila sikwa nh rkhegi" she stated filling up her daughter's plate with various delicacies.
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" pehli baar thori dhang ki lag rhi hai" Ruhan commented seeing his sister's nikkah pictures.
" mein roz dhang ki lagti hu, tu hi jaanwar lagta hai, daffa ho yahan se"
" Mein Shehnaaz aapi ko yeh tasveere dikha kar aati hu" Maha said excitedly jumping out of bed.
" kahin nh jana, yahin betho chup karke" fatima shouted snatching her phone.
" Ammi ab aap ye zyaddti kr rhi hai, apne unhe nikkah mein aane se roka, ab in sbme bhi rokengi, aakhir aapko ho ky gya hai" she questioned back not able to understand her behaviour.
" Tumhe khuch Nh pta, usse jitna dur reh sko rehna, mein ye nh keh rhi uski nazar buri hai lekin abhi din Hi kitne hue hai, ye sb dekh kar uske man mein kahin na kahin toh aayega hi na ki kaash uska sohar zinda hota hai..."
" Ammi par unhone hi mujhse kha tha tasveere dikhane ko, isme khuch nh hota"
" tumhe smjh nh aata na, ek baar ki baat... jaise kha hai waise karo, aur me toh kehti hu ruksati tak usse dur rho, tumhari saas bhi yahi cahati hai" Fatima said.
" Ammi apk dimag khrab ho gya hai, agr shehnaaz ki jagah apk beti hoti tab bhi yahi sb kehti aap, this is disgusting, itni wahiyaat Soch toh Nh thi apk" Sidharth voiced out in rage.
" tumhe agr ye soch wahiyat lagti hai toh wahi theekh, uski itni tarifdaari Karne ki koi zarrorat Nh, dur Hi Rho...pta nh ky jaadu Kia hai usne"
" mujhe dar hai ek din aap apni soch mein isse zyada bhi na gir jaaye" he said before dashing out of the room.
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Shehnaaz was waiting for a bus when a car suddenly stopped in front of her, the mirror slid down showing his handsome face.
" sit inside" he commands not even looking at her.
" Aap jaiye mein chli jaungi" she answered meekly, she didn't expect any of her family members at this hour of the morning, for God sake its only 7 am, she wanted to escape from her house before everyone woke up as she didn't want any sympathy filled eyes on her, she is good...she is happy...may be She is not but she is fine.
" Shehnaaz come and sit inside" This time his voice held domination as
she opened the door of the passenger seat and made herself comfortable.
" chle" she whispered, looking out of the window trying to ignore his presence.
" Kha Jana hai??" he asked.
"University" she answered.
" Aaj k din apk university khuli hai, Shehnaaz" he questioned controlling his anger.
" J...i..wo.." she gulped down in fear, his intense gaze boring holes into her face.
" Aaj Sunday hai...syd aap bhul gyi"
" bhule nh hai, Aj college mein koi entrance exam hai Maine uski duty ke liye volunteer Kia hai bs"
" ghr se bhagne ke liye" he questioned tightening his hold on the steering wheel, she looked into his direction, he seemed extremly calm to her, his face showed no sign of anger.
" Ap bhi university jaa rhe hai" she asked trying to change the topic.
" you are forgetting I am a professor as well as university president," she gulped and scolded herself for forgetting this, their grandfather Junaid Siddiqui started this university, but soon he died because of kidney failure, unfortunately, his father and uncle were not interested in this....they hired someone who could manage the overall work of the university, and now after Junaid... Sidharth showed interest in the education field, he worked very hard day and night to create this university a dream college for students... does he succeed??? To some extent yes...
"Kal tum thi na wahan Maha ke kamre ke bahar" he asked, he saw a glimpse of her dupatta.
" n..h.. Kisne kha" she questioned.
" shehnaaz tumhe pta hai na I hate lies" he said putting a sudden break.
" apko kyu Meri itni fiqar karni hai, mein thikh Hu aur nh bhi Hu toh Ho jaungi" she spoke out, but her words depicted vulnerability and answers of questions.
" dur rhe mujhse...please" she said.
" mujhe tumhari fiqar Karne ke liye na toh tumhari izzazat ki zarrorat hai or na hi kisi rishte ki" he announced looking at her.
" Rishto se toh aap bhagte hai na, tabhi toh chle gye the mana karke" she chuckled shaking her head in displeasure....
" par pta hai Kya Acha hua Ap humare bich hone wale rishte se bhag gye...pehli daffa apk commitment phobia ka result khuch acha aaya..." she added further playing with her fingers while his eyes staring at her...he blanks out all of a sudden... he wanted to say many things but the words stuck in his throat making it hard for him...the silence filled in the atmosphere before he decided to speak further.
" mein ek divorcee tha shehnaaz, aur mein bilkul bhi tumhari jaise ladki deserve nh karta tha, rishte se bhaga nh tha, tumhe sirf ek aise insan k saath nh bandhna chahta tha jo khud itne andhere me ho,"
" Toh ab bhi mat kariye, ye sb aap jo kr rhe hai, meri fiqar, mere liye stand lena, na kare..."
" yeh maine humesa se kia hai tumhare liye" he defeneded.
" jisko maine apk mohabbat smjh lia tha" she whispered resting her face on the backrest, her tears falling silently on her cheeks.
" kabhi ki hai apne mujhse mohabbat??" she questioned not able to control herself.
" mujhe koi sikwa nh hai apse, woh Syd mohabbat thi Hi nh bs bachpana tha Jo mujhe farhad se mil ke pta laga, par ab ush Khani ka koi mod nh hai, khuch Bacha Hi nh hai, na umeed..na sikkayetein aur na hi intzaar" he didn't say anything after that, the way to the college was filled with the utmost silence but their heart saying thousands of words.
" The saddest thing is
When you are feeling very low
You look around and realize
That there is no shoulder
For you"
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Jaan-e-jahan
FanfictionA story of sidharth Siddiqui and his love for his widow cousin... peep inside to know more...
