I drove for miles
Just to find you and find myself
All these screams all these voices in my head
You gave me strength gave me hope for a lifetime I never was satisfied
This time wont you save me
This time wont you save me
Baby I can feel myself giving up (giving up)
Giving up
Save me -Nicki Minaj
I felt like this song kinda relates to this chapter
Rennys P.O.V
I held on to a loose brick on the side of the house. I was weak and I couldnt hold on for too long. "Sean", I yelled as loud as I could. I felt my voice crack as I kept yelling for him. "Sean please held me", I yelled louder. My hand started to slip off the brick. I heard someone in the other room and I tried to reach for the window handle. My hand started to slip even more and my hand slipped off the brick I fell off and I felt somebody catch my arm. I looked up and there hes again here to save me ..My Sean. Micheal walked next to him and grabbed my other hand. They picked me up by my arms and dragged me back throught the window as I fell on the hardwood floor. "Thank you", I said trying to catch my breath. "Baby breathe and stop worrying", Sean said as he held my face. I felt like I was having a panic attack. My breathing was heavy but it still like there was no oxygen. I had a thousands things I wanted to say in my mind. Instead nothing came out my mouth. I sat on the floor for a couple seconds and got up and hugged Micheal and Sean. "Thank you soo much", I said.
The Next Day
So im doing way better mentally and physically. I was in Miami with Sean. Tyga went and got all my stuff from Aubureys house and I'm staying with Sean for right now. I dont feel safe by myself so I stayed with Sean. It was around 11:00 and we had to be at the studio at 3:30. I started my rapping career and stuff. I think im pretty good. I layed in Seans bed wrapped up in a blanket. He had a beautiful penthouse with a balcony and a big as jacuzzi. The window was open and the whole bedroom was a pristine white. Sean came out the bathroom with a towel wrap around his waist. I was only in my Victoria Secret white bra abd panties.. It was white and it matched the whole room.
He layed down next to me and put some of the cover over him. He held me close and kissed my neck softly. I blushed and laid my head down on the pillow. "Just because Im staying with you for a couple months doesnt mean that im with you", I said. "Hush Renny", he said. He took his towel off from around him and got under the covers with me. He kissed up my thigh and then around my waistline. "Sean move", I said biting my lip. He ignored me and then kissed my stomach to my navel. He took one finger and slide my secrets off and thats when I stopped him. "No Sean I cant do this with you and I wont and Drake and I", I said pushing his hand away and putting my underwear back on. He shook his head and got off of me. "I cant believe you be so stupid to believe that Drake loves you remember the guy who tried to kill you.. do you recall last night, he treats you like you stupid and maybe I should do that to you to.. You worried about him and you two arent even together anymore.. and on top of that I saved your life twice and let you stay in my damn house", he said. Its all good you sleep on the couch when I bring some broads over. I got up and put on some sweats and went downstairs and sat on the couch. Why does everything just go wrong I thought to myself.
Seans whole house... THAT PENTHOUSE THO ^-^
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