Yours Truly, Tyanna

(this chapter contains attempted suicide) chapter 3

Month 2 of my pregnancy
November 11th

My stomach grew a little but still not enough for people to notice . My birthday was today but it was never gonna be normal again . I'm not sure if I wanna even celebrate. I have to much to do...  having a baby and all it's just like my normal days are over , where I would go out to party maybe even drink a little , but my whole life has been taken over by this human being growing inside of me . Maybe if I would have just never went to go see him , or maybe if he used protection . I could never be a better parent than him , Micah .... He's probably the best father , the best boyfriend, the best friend, he's all I have . I love him , and nobody can stop me from loving him , he may be 17 I may be 15 ... but we can make this work , we can make it work , we can make it , we can make , we can , we , ....

November 23rd 5:26 am

My birthday was pretty fun , I just hung out with Micah . I've been out of school for a little while over some complications with my pregnancy, nothing serious just some minor things . I threw on some clothes , luckily all my clothes still fit me because once I grow it will be a nightmare . I also haven't seen Anorah in a while , neither have I my mom , I've been staying with Micah and his parents , after his dad is in death row after going on a killing spree . I feel like crime has always ran through Micah's family . He was in jail for a very long time at the age of 12 , he got out at the age of 15 . I'm not sure what it was for . I just don't want any of that negativity around my baby. " have you seen Anorah ? " I say to Micah as we lean on our lockers during break . " what do you mean ? You stay with us ." Micah says placing his arm around my neck . " yeah I know but I'm just thinking maybe she would talk to you about it after all you are her brother . Maybe she trust you more with what she is going through " I remark . " well ... if she would ever be talking to me , I would tell you . " Micah lifts up my chin letting in a slight kiss before smiling and walking to class . ughhhh how I love this boy .

November 23rd 8:00 pm

I'm laying in my bed as I let out a slight sigh I can't stop thinking about Anorah, even if she never wanted to see me again , I still had something in me that loved her . THUD ! we hear a loud noise outside waking up me and Micah " what was that ?" Micah questioned me as he walks out onto the balcony , as he froze .... he just froze ... I didn't know what to do . I thought about walking out but what if I saw something I never wanted to see ? so ... I walked out , there was a pool of blood . Every thing behind me faded , Micah running towards his parents , showing me out the way , I was silent . I was unheard . I was ...

( who do yall think it was? Stop to answer )

November 24th 5:24 am

Im sitting in the waiting room , that taps of my foot , the sweat dripping down my forehead, got louder and louder. tip tap tip tap tip... "TYANNA !!" Micah yells shoving my shoulder . I look up with a blank look on my face " we have to go back into the room." I stand up with shivering legs , it's like my legs were jello , I could barely even walk. I walk into the room , sitting there was ... Anorah . I couldn't hold back my tears I drop down on my knees , I cried and cried and cried . Micah running to comfort me " your okay ." He says wiping away my tears . I push Micah off of me ." I'm okay ? IM OKAY ? IM. NOT OKAY MICAH , SHE COULD DIE ! SHE JUMPED OFF OF A FUCKING ROOF . " I yell tears streaming down my face . " she's not dead tho tyanna ! She still has a chance you just have to believe in her . " Micah says trying to grab my hand . I push his hand away standing to go sit by Anorah . I grab her hand , while putting one hand on my heart as I pray ."dear god , give me the power , the strength, the belief that Anorah will come back . Anorah will be stronger than ever and she will make it , amen "

November 28th

it's been a few days now , I'm still not talking to Micah knowingly I do have to talk talk to him about baby shower things . Speaking of that , my baby shower is in 2 months and I'm so excited, and I'll probably have my gender reveal at 7 months but that's for later on . I have been out of school for a while now which is lowing my performance. Since I do want the best job for my child I will continue going to school which will be pretty awkward.

November 29th

Anorah is still in the hospital, I hope she gets better soon , I want her to know that I still love her even after what happened, we haven't fought like that ever since she stole my favorite toy . This times it's real , she hasn't spoken to me for over 2 months , if I could tell her anything I would tell her how much I miss her and how much I am sorry . I don't know why she did it I don't know why she jumped , but she could have talked to me , please talk to me Anorah .

7:56 am

I walk into the school with my head hanging going to open up my locker " where have you been ty ?" a close friend of mine asks . " I've just been having to handle some things ... " I say grabbing my books out of my locker and walking away . As I'm walking to class I see Micah " ty.." Micah says as I start to speed up my walking pace . Micah grabs my arm sternly pulling me closer to him " ow you're hurting me !" Micah lets go staring at me . " I know you're mad , but you can't just not talk to me . We are having a child together so you need to put your feelings away and focus on the baby we are raising! We need to plan for the baby shower so come to my house tonight " Micah walks away. is he right ?