"You know..." jeff started talking, "I want to be happy" Surprised by his sentences I widened my eyes. "being happy is nothing you have to learn, yk either you are happy or you're not." I said.
"I know."he said. "You could try smiling a few times." I said trying to break the for me akward silence.
"Smiling?"
"That's it!" He yelled. "What do you mean?" I asked, not getting an answer. He had the knife he'd used moments ago on me still in his and and started lining in on his mouth corners. I shut my eyes even more open than I thought I could, my eyelids even started hurting.
"I'm going to smile for ever." He said and without hesitation started cutting curved lines on both his mouth corners. I was to stunned to speak and started feeling scared again. As he looked at me he realized that I've witnessed everything and just smiled, which looked horrible with his corners to his cheeks leaking blood and blood drops dripping on the floor.
Two days later we had school, I knew jeff wouldn't be here because of what had happened. Whenever I think about it shivers send down my spine. It was terrible seeing it but there's nothing I could've done about it.
I haven't told anyone about what had happened, not even my cousin, even tho we tell each other everything, with that I mean literally everything.
But whenever I go out I still feel like someone is watching me and it always sends shivers down my spine.
Me and my cousin we're invited to liu and jeff's house again, i'm happy for my cousin about their relationship even tho it's kinda toxic, liu had been cheating on my cousin multiple times but she always takes him back.
At first I didn't want to go because I didn't want to see jeff, but my cousin dragged me so I had no chance to not go. I just hoped jeff wouldn't be there, I mean who would come outside with that wound in their face?
At first the 3 of us had a good time even tho I don't like liu at all. But then suddenly I heard steps comming down the stairs and I immediately knew who they belonged to. Again shivers send down my spine and I started shaking a bit. "damn you're that excited to see him again?" liu said. I just said "yeeeaa sure" with a tone I couldn't figure out myself.
"Hey" jeff said coldly and I didn't move an inch.
"What the fuck happend to your face?!" My cousin yelled and jumped to her feet. Jeff didn't seem to bother and came into the living room where we were and sat down on the couch, of course right next to me. He put his arm behind me which made me nervous. Then he whispered in my ear "are you not going to look at me, did you forget you're mine?" while pointing at my arm, which was covered with my long sleeved
top, immediately my cheeks started to burn.
"what the fuck." my cousin said again. "What the hell is going on. What is he saying selo?! What happened to your arm! Are you fucking playing rn I'll kill you, you punk!" apparently my cousin had heard what he said, she always listens to everything that's not her business. "Hello?! Am I not getting an answer. Selo show me your arm" She said while trying to grab my sleeve. "No lea nothing is on my arm chill" "haha chill." lea said while ironically laughing. "Babe chill they're weird just leave them be." Liu interrupted "Oh hell nah digga did you just call my cousin weird ? Only I'm allowed to say stuff like that. Go upstairs we'll talk later." She sounded like a mother, I laughed to myself and liu really did as told, which only made me laugh more. "We'll talk later" Lea said while pointing her finger at me and jeff, then heading upstairs, probably to scold liu, or fuck. No one really knows what'll happen next to them.
Suddenly jeff picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist, he carried me upstairs infront of his now familiar bed. "Please no tying today." I said while looking at him. He laughed, again so full of evilness. He threw me on the floor and I yelled in pain, so he grabbed my hair and said "shut the fuck up slut." With his other hand he opened his belt and took out his already hard, pre leaking dick. "suck" he said so seductively. And I did as told, meanwhile doing that I looked him right into the eyes. Not breaking eye contact I started speeding up my pace. I could feel his dick twitching inside my mouth and soft moans escaped his mouth. I knew he was about to cum, but then sudden he pulled me again by my hair backwards so, again I was left feeling empty, but this time in my mouth.
He freaked out again and searched for a lighter. "I can't", "Fuck I can't stand looking at you." "Everytime I look at you I feel breakable. I feel so fucking Vulnerable." I couldn't form my words again, because of all the things comming together. Does he like me? I thought to myself. But my thoughts we're interrupted by him lighting the lighter. I didn't know what he's do next but then I knew. I fucking knew what he was about to do. "Stop. Jeff stop!!" I yelled getting on my feet since I didn't dare to move beforehand.
Of course he didn't listen and put the lighted lighter directly to his eye, immediately the smell of burned hair rushed to my nose, first his lashes burned and then, then his eyes. His beautiful dark brown almost black eyes. I covered my mouth trying not to scream or throw up. He looked so different. He looked nothing like Jeff. He looked like a killer.
I couldn't believe what happened so I blacked out, I could've done something to help him.
But I knew I was too late.
