When Will U Choose Me?

Hes here

My heart is pounding in my chest and I just saw Derek fucking Shepard walk by me. We locked eyes. I walked past a door to a staircase and get pulled in. The room is dark and I get pushed to a wall. Suddenly the room brightens up. And Derek is standing there. He looked much more older now. But still as hot as I remember. I could feel my face getting hot again, and I had this urge to kiss him. I shook the thought from my head. "He wouldn't kiss me' I thought to myself.

I glance over to the wall and he pulls my face back to meet his eyes, his lips inches away from mine I could feel his hot breath on my face. But suddenly he stopped. He just looked at me and he pressed his mouth to mine. His lips were cold and it's felt good being able to feel them on mine again.

Wait no. I can't be falling for him again. I pushed him off and walked out of the staircase and I smiled to myself. " I'm in love with Derek Shepard. " I thought to myself he's not worth all those tears or emotions anymore. And I shook the thought of being in love with him.

I can't be.

Not again.

..... I won't go through that again