Letters to Layne (slow updates)

Letter 1: The begining

Dear Layne,
I stare at my phone every night. Still the same dull grey screen with the words "No new messages" printed in bold, mocking me. Taunting me. Ever since you left I've been dying inside. No, I take that back. Ever since you told me you were leaving I've felt this way. Its even worse because you're not here to comfort me.

"I had to get rid of my phone." You said, sitting next to me on the park bench starring at your hands in your lap. "Why?" I had asked. "The situation with my dads visitation makes it so I can't keep a job in order to pay for it." You answered.

I didn't say anything back because I knew it wouldn't really make a difference if I argued. I know it's kind of dumb but my stomach felt like it fell three floors when you told me this. I instantly knew something was going on, you seemed so nervous and not yourself. You hadn't even told me you were leaving yet, not until about a week after that. I should have just kissed you right there on that bench under the trees. But I didn't.

I could go on forever on the list of things I didn't do. I didn't say "I love you" enough, didn't hug you enough, didn't hold your hand enough. I took it all for granted, every last bit of it. I guess the truth of it all is that I was scared of getting hurt so I subconsciously kept my distance and I hate myself so much for it.

You could have stayed. You had a choice, Layne.

By the time you get this you'll probably have forgotten about me but, just listen to what I have to say okay? This might be the only way for me to cope and fix myself, pick up the pieces you broke me into and put them back together.

Now, on to what this letter is really about: Our beginning.

It was an abnormally warm day for the end of March. I was new to the town and the school. I had just met Jaylie and she wanted to hang out all the time, get to know me and introduce me to people. Coming into a new school at the very end of the year is hard to do but you made it better.

Jaylie had planned the whole day out: First we were going to get ice cream cones at the mall, next we'd get our nails done, and lastly we'd go meet up with some of her friends.

You were amongst those friends. Although, you already know that.

All 8 of us were messing around on the grade school's playground that was basically in Jaylie's backyard. We each had a squirt gun in our hands while a bucket of water balloons was on the swirly slide- your favorite slide to escape to.

Everyone was having a good time blasting each other in the face with water and squealing and chasing each other. Except me, I guess I was an introvert back then because I'd always prefer to sit by myself and just watch. I kept finding that my eyes would land on you and admire you. Your short, curly brown hair and your beautiful blue-green eyes. I loved the way you were so confident and natural.

I was sitting in the grass under a pine tree checking my phone when I heard a twig break behind me. I hadn't suspected anything because I thought everyone was still in front of me where I could see them. Of course I was wrong.

SPLAT

Water engulfed the entire back of me and I see you standing there up against the tree all nonchalant like nothing happened. "Hey there lady." you said with a smirk. "Yeah, hi." I answered with annoyance coating my voice. "Come join us, I promise I won't bite." You said with a chuckle.

"No thanks, I'll just watch from here if that's okay." I said, turning back to my phone. You sat down next to me and started starring at me. It's nothing.. Just keep looking at your phone and he will eventually go away, I thought to myself. Silly of me to think because in a few days we'd become inseparable.

"Wanna get out of here?" You whispered to me. It sent chills through my body when you'd whisper in my ear. I miss those chills. "Sure I guess. Where are we going?" You grabbed my hand and started running so I had no choice but to follow you. You took me to the courtyard/garden of the school. (Why does a grade school need this? Good question, beats me). Smack dab in the middle of a patch of roses, sunflowers, and tulips, stood a gazebo. You led me to it and sat on a bench in it, patting the open spot next to you.

"Okay, let's start over. Hello there Madame, my name is Layne. May I have the pleasure of knowing your name?" You charmingly said to me as I sat next to you. "It's Sierra. Nice rhyme, do you use that line on all the girls?" I laughed as you extended your arm to shake my hand. Instead of shaking my hand though, you kissed it.

We spent a good hour, to two hours in that gazebo telling stories to each other and sharing experiences, laughing. I loved the way you looked at me that day. When we left the gazebo and went back to the playground everyone had already left. So, you drove me home.

"Meet me in the gazebo Friday after school?" You asked. I blushed and agreed. "You know something Sierra?" "What.." I answered. "You are gorgeous." You smiled and kept your eyes on the road. Butterflies zoomed around in my stomach and I started blushing like crazy.

When I got out of your car you walked me to my doorstep and grabbed my hand, kissing it and looking at me. "It was a pleasure meeting you Sierra." You said, your blue-green eyes sparkling in the 5:00 pm sunset. My cheeks flared up and I couldn't help smiling. "Same here Layne." I said and I walked inside.
For some reason I felt like that was our first date, but I kept insisting to everyone who suspected something was going on between us that we were just friends.

I really really liked you.

(c) 2015 Alia Cancilliere

Authors Note: So how was the first chapter? I'm excited about this book haha not sure how often I can update it though, but I'll try to do it maybe at least once a week. ~Alia
P.S. Enjoy the 1100 words xP I'll probably make the other chapters shorter because I'm lazy.