p.sunghoon → his smirk

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It was about 3am, and I still got calls from Sunghoon - on the regular damn. This guy clearly wasn't enjoying his Areum sleepover, huh.

I found my way in the main town square, finally, using a GPS on my phone, I made it somewhere I could navigate confidently.

See, I didn't want to go home, but I didn't want to stay here either. And additionally, I did have Sunghoon's entire wallet with me. He was pretty fucking loaded, he had bills and a black card stuffed in here.

I could get my revenge and just lash a shit ton of money on useless stuff, but what good would that really do in the end?

Sunghoon rang my phone again, I hesitated to pick it up. Maybe I should at least let him know I've not been kidnapped by a mob and had my organs harvested and filled with cocaine, but no - I'm still petty like that, I let the phone ring again.

A little guilt came over me, he was probably on the verge of cardiac arrest at every pointless phone call. I'm sure he was already imagining the worst, especially since that alley incident.

He was definitely stressing his balls out. Well, I suppose it teaches him a lesson to maybe not hide shit from his girlfriend and leave her hanging outside in the cold for ages.

I decided to just make my way back to where Areum was stood on that rooftop, it must be a nice view from up top, all the lights and skyscrapers.

I walked into the elevator and pressed the button for the very top, the wait took a while - but it's nothing compared to the length I just walked. Holy fuck, I just wanted to rest my legs or something.

I made it to the top, and I was just right, it was so beautiful, lights glimmered like glitter on a black canvas. Everything was just euphoric and blissful to look at, it was like a breather from everything that just happened.

Though, there was that part of me that still felt horrendously awful for Sunghoon, like genuinely it made me sick thinking about how worried he must be. And yeah, I know I'm a bad person for whatever act I'm pulling up, and I know he'd be mad, but you gotta look at both ends of the situation.

Imagine if I didn't decide to go to the parking lot and overhear their conversation. I'd probably be texting Sunghoon at home while he'd be having fun with Areum.

I lay on the cold ground, staring at the stars up top, ugh, seriously, I was in a mess right now. Was it really that serious? And as I was just overwhelmed by guilt, my phone rang another time. I checked to see who it was - Sunghoon.

I froze for a second, unable to think for some reason. I was literally going to pick up the phone but my body refused to move until the call passed.

He sent a message after the call passed.

I read it through my lockscreen, just so he couldn't see that I read his message.

'if you aren't in my arms by tomorrow I think i'll jump off that rooftop'

'WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU'

'i dont know what the fuck to do'

'baby im so sorry'

I laughed at that first message, realising how happy this guy actually made me. I sat up, staring at the buildings and looking around the busy city. I took a deep breath, maybe I was literally overreacting.

My phone pinged a few times again.

'i refuse to sleep till i see you'

'i know i shouldnt of left you alone'

'fuck i shouldve known better - there are some fucking creeps'

'i beg youre alive'

'i just want to see your face'

I unknowingly let out a few tears, I don't know why I felt extremely sensitive now. Areum's words were all passing through my head harshly - and the nighttime makes me emotional too. The two are just really compatible - negative thoughts and night time.

Somehow, I managed to just fall into a daze, observing the cars on the roads or looking around. And it was like that for two hours.

Four fifty three am.

4:53AM.

Currently.

I descended into a brood of sadness and guilt, I didn't want to do much and I just felt sick.

The clock struck five in the morning. And a few minutes passed by, my phone rang again.

"No way this guy is still awake." I managed to choke out a small chuckle, despite this overhanging sadness.

I felt alone, I wanted Sunghoon with me. No more pettiness left in me, no more fight in me, I picked up his call.

And there was silence for a second, as if Sunghoon expected me to not pick up.

"Yerin-?! Yerin!?!? Where are you, baby, I am on my way wherever you are." Sunghoon urged, clearly hurrying by the sound of his rushed movement.

"Uh.." I was a little dazed, from all these depressive thoughts and simply fatigue. I couldn't think straight for a second.

"Please tell me that is Yerin." Sunghoon's voice shook from the other end. I gave a small laugh.

"I miss you." I simply told him, and the sigh of relief he let out was humourous.