Tomjake One Shots<3

Some Good Angst :3

Tw: Self harm, eating disorder.

Tom got back home after buying some groceries that him and his boyfriend Jake needed. He opened the door, and waited for Jake to come hug him like he always did. It was something that Tom was getting used to, not like he didn't want to, it actually made Tom feel special in someway.
He waited, but nothing.
"Strange" he thought. The idea of Jake simply getting out of the house for some reason came in his mind. "Jake is not the type to left home without closing the door." immediately interrupted Tom's assumption who started to get worried.
"Jake are you home?" he asked, without getting answers. Tom walked to the kitchen and put the groceries on the table, to then get distracted by a sound from the bathroom, like something falling and water running out.
"Jake?" he asked, now heading to the bathroom, he opened the door which wasn't locked, with anxiety. Praying God for Jake to be okay.

"T-Tom, please don't!" Jake voice spoke while he was with his arm under the sink water, Tom looked down at the arm that his boyfriend tried to hide, he also noticed the water color; a light red, almost orange.
Then he looked at Jake. His look was a mess: his eyes were wet as he had just finished crying, his hair were messy and his arms.. There were a few cuts on them.
Tom's heart crushed seeing that. He knew that Jake used to have struggles with self harm, but he had hoped that he was doing fine. How could he let Jake do something like that to himself?
Was he.. Being that careless for Jake?
"Jake... Why?" he asked holding Jake's hand tight.
"I'm... I'm sorry.."
Before getting to any other questions, Tom took matters into his own hands and pick some bandages and disinfectant and stopped the water.
"I'm.. so sorry..." Jake said shaking while Tom grabbed his injured arm and disinfecting it.
"Don't apologize." he gently said as he kept doing his job on healing Jake's arm.
"But.. this is all my fault." Jake mumbled as Tom put the bandages on his cuts.
"It's not... But why? Why hurting yourself? Please tell me if something is wrong. We'll fix it together."
Tom hugged Jake tight and Jake cried on his chest not able to talk nor process how could Tom be so worried. He tried speaking, but whenever he would start talking he'd start crying again.
"Take your time, Jake." Tom softly whispered. He lifted Jake in his arms, knowing how much Jake loved that, and carrying him on their bed.

Tom petted Jake's soft and messy hair, comforting his beloved.
Jake seemed to calm down, he took some deep breathes, Tom gently wiped his tears off.
"are you better now?" Tom calmly said, although he was all but calm.
"a little..." Jake softly answered, hugging his boyfriend even more tightly.
"what happened back there?" Tom stroked his hair while he spoke.
Jake stayed silent, trying to find the right words.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." Tom kissed Jake's cheek, which was also one of the things he loved the most.
"H-have I ever told you about when I used to suffer from eating disorder?" Jake softly spoke.
"I don't think you ever did." Tom was shocked, but tried to remain calm as possible.
"Well... In high school, the kid's comments and general bullying.. Made me hate myself. And that included my weight too... I would have days where I won't eat at all and days where I would eat too much. Things got worse and I would eat too much all days, but then I'll just go throwing up..." Jake took deep breaths, and Tom kept listening patiently, cuddling Jake.
"I've been so sick for all of the vomiting... But it took me a long time and work to get over it. I started doing progresses, but I screwed everything..." Jake looks away.
"What do you mean Jake?" Tom put a hand on Jake's cheek so to face him.
Jake's looks was still not facing Tom's, he stayed silent. Tom suddenly understood.
"Jake..." Tom tried to hold back tears. His lover has been suffering and he didn't even notice? What kind of partner is he? He should have noticed. He should have been there from the beginning. How could he notice only now?
"I-I'm too afraid of eating now... I'm scared I'll lose control and eat too much..." Jake said afraid of Tom's reaction.
"I'm so sorry Jake... I should have been there before. I'll help you with it. No matter what those kids told you: you are absolutely beautiful and gorgeous. I love you unconditionally from your body type, all I want is to see you happy."
Jake finally looks at Tom, noticing that his eyes were wet. He was overwhelmed by Tom's words, none among his previous boyfriends ever comforted him that way, actually carrying and actually trying to make him feel better...
He hugged Tom tightly again, which Tom immediately responded by hugging back.
"I'll do everything for you, you know right?"
Tom spoke. His words were honest. Tom really was worried about Jake's health. And really was willing to do everything.
Tom gave Jake a kiss on the forehead.
"H-how did I get so lucky to have you? W-what did I do?" Jake whispered still shaking a little.
"I could say the same thing. You make me so happy." Tom speaks while petting Jake's head.
"I'm.. Tired... Can we just... Cuddle for a while?"
Tom chuckles. Tom lays down on the bad with Jake resting his head on Tom's chest, while he gave pets to his dear lover.