Butterflies fly away

How I fell for him

I walked to the door just glancing in the mirror.
He stood there and smiled at me. I tapped my purse just making sure my phone was there. I shouted to my mum that I was leaving and pulled the door to. I followed him to his car, his mum was driving us. He opened the car door and pulled the seat forward. Then he slipped through to the back seat. He pulled the seat back and I got in the front.
His mum pulled up just outside the cinema and we got out.
We bought our tickets and went over to get drinks and popcorn.
He glanced up at the board above the counter.
"What do you fancy? I might just get a water."
"I think I'm gonna get a coke."
I went to the fridge and picked up a water and a coke and put them on the counter.
"Sweet or salted?" I asked.
"Sweet, if that's okay?"
"Sure."
He asked for a medium popcorn and I counted out £5 for my coke and the popcorn, then I placed it by his hand. He glanced down at the money, "Don't worry about that, I'll get them."
I smiled up at him and he handed me my coke and grabbed his water and the popcorn.
We walked over to the ticket guy who directed us to the correct screen.
I followed him into the room.
He asked where I wanted to sit, but I didn't mind, so I followed him all the way to the second last row where he stopped for me to go first. I walked halfway and sat down.
There weren't many other people there a few couples and a family.

I kept my eyes directly on the screen and I could only see him reach to get popcorn from the corner of my eye. I was just reaching for popcorn when his hand brushed against mine, it sent a cool shiver up my spine. I wanted to hold his hand tight, but he pulled his hand back.
I couldn't concentrate for the rest of the film, I kept my eyes locked on the screen but I could just feel the warmth of him sat beside me.
When the film finished we stayed sat down and we talked as the lights turned brighter and the credits rolled. I tried to forget what had happened. It felt like we hadn't been talking long but I realised it must have been longer than I thought. By the time he stood up it was just us left.
I really didn't want to leave it just felt so normal to be with him. I wish I could just spend the rest of my life by his side.
I knew I couldn't just stay there so I got up too. We left the cinema and he reached into his pocket and glanced at his phone.
"My mum is on her way,"
Then he looked up to me.
"Good film!"
"Yeah." I nervously mumbled.
I didn't feel up to talking to much, I was worried that he might ask more about the film. The film I knew nothing about because I was preoccupied the whole way through.
That would be awkward. I would have to change the subject or make something up hoping he wouldn't notice.

For the whole journey back I stayed silent, I couldn't help smiling. Being in his presence was enough to make me happy. The thought that he spent this time with me because he wanted to.
That made me happy.
All I could think about was how this ended up even happening. The conversation we had when the topic of a specific film came up, that we both wanted to watch. Why he asked me to go and watch it with him. How we ended up spending most of the holidays together.

By the time we got to his house the silence had started to feel awkward. I just didn't know how to start a conversation without knowing the subject of the film would come up.

We got back to his and I followed him to his living room where he sat down on the sofa. I sat on the one opposite just to keep distance. I wasn't too sure what to make of this. People had lead me on too many times before for me to fall for anything again. Noah was different, he was a friend.
He picked up the TV remote and put on a TV programme. I didn't know what it was but I didn't say anything.
"Hey, what are you doing all the way over there? Come over here!"
Relieved, I got up and sat next to him. I didn't think he was going to say anything, but I really didn't want to spend the rest of the night across the room from him.
"Here, you must be tired." He pulled a cushion from behind his back and put it next to his head.
I slowly leant back onto the cushion.
His voice was soft and gentle. Then the silence was no longer awkward.
He got a conversation going and we ended up talking about almost everything.

Most people would say I'm shy, but when I'm with him I feel confident. Sometimes I struggle to get along with people, but talking to him felt as easy as tying my laces. I find it hard to trust people, but I could tell him anything. That was what I found so special about him.
Being with him felt different to being with my other friends.

It started to get late and I needed to be home so I decided that I should go.
"I should go back now."
"Ok." He opened his arms and I fell into them.
"I'll see you soon yeah?" He mumbled into my shoulder.
I didn't want to let go, I wanted to be in his arms forever.
For that moment I couldn't stop the smile on my face. It got bigger every second he held me.

He stood by the door until I could no longer see him.
I lived just a road from him so I walked back without any trouble.

I was tired, so when I got into back went to my room. I rolled into bed and tucked my self under the duvet. I wrapped it around me realising I was still in my clothes. I did this often enough for it to not bother me.
No matter how hard I tried I couldn't sleep. Id forgotten everything but him, his face was the only one I could picture. I just kept going over it all.
Every conversation.
Every moment his eyes looked into mine.
Every minute I spent with him.

That was all over. School was about to start again, the holidays were over. So no more days out with Noah.
No more bike rides into town, cinema trips or movie nights.
Just school, homework and revision.
I wasn't going to be able to see him for weeks at once.

This was thanks to the fact we went to different schools. This resulted in us having different friends.
Noah and I had never been to the same school but our parents were best friends ever since we were born.
Whenever our parents wanted to see each other they would drag us along with them. Meaning we spent a lot of time together.
We both also had a younger and older sibling meaning we had a lot in common when it came to family.
It also helped the fact when we were older we had to baby sit our siblings.
When our parents went out, I would go to Noah's house with my brother Joshua and we would baby sit Joshua and his brother Lucas together.

When we were younger we also had loads of free time. We would meet after school in the summer to get an ice cream and go to each other's houses to watch movies in winter. Then exams started meaning we were both studying. Every now and then we would go to the cinema at the weekend but that was it.
That was when I fell for him. Just as we were starting to drift apart, I fell in love with Noah.