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Jasmine

I spent the next 3 days away. Suspended as expected. Why isn't it ethical to commit a bad action, but it is ethical to punish it? Isn't it all the same after all? The punishment is also a bad action that comes as a result of another wrongdoing... I am overthinking too much, I guess. I knew this was going to happen; I beat the crap out of a student in school. My plan wasn't so perfect after all. Or maybe there weren't any other alternatives? The school bully who always humiliates got humiliated publicly. An eye for an eye, I guess... That rule is not applied in society. I guess it means that it is wrong. Or is it? Who decides it? The society? The government? Almighty God? I don't know. Maybe it is the inner feelings of every individual that decide what is ethical for that person. Does it really matter though? I got suspended and I can't change it. I guess life is just like that. The majority of things are the ones you cannot control.

15.13. I remembered Jasmine. Her eyes were like two separate worlds to me. Beautiful and infinite. Are they really infinite? Is there anything infinite? What is infinity after all? Who cares? I am just thinking too much. I wish my body could physically keep up with the rhythm of my thoughts... Anyways, Jasmine. When I saw her looking directly into my eye, I felt something strange, something new. Could that be... LOVE? No, no, no... It cannot be. I've never been in love with anybody. It's impossible. I can't love myself; how could I think about loving someone else? No, no, no, impossible. I guess it was not love; it had probably been surprise, nervousness, or something else.

17.09. My phone rang. Notification... Strange, I don't have any good friends that talk to me. Unknown number. Hmmm, who could it be? I read the message, and it says: "Hey, it's Jasmine. I saw you the other day. What a show ahahhahah. You didn't deserve to get suspended, Jacob got what he deserved. About what I wanted to tell you... I always see you in school but you never talk to anybody, maybe we could go out someday. I am really interested in knowing you after what you did, I thought it was very brave of you. Let me know ASAP."

17.10. It was indeed love... That feeling, it was love. When I read the first line of the message, my heart raced like a demon. I felt like I was going to explode. Somebody forgot their busy life and actually thought of taking time to talk to me and even wanted to know me. I felt like I was ascending to the gates of Heaven.