The Desire, The Regrets And The Stories

when stories Align and Thruth is realised

In life , never wave away warning signals ... "E get why" as my Nigerians do say when warning a person . I keep reflecting on my past relationship , sorry if I keep making it all about relationships but it is what it is dearest   ... Mind you am a very hardworking , intentional woman especially  when it comes  to money making, business enterprises and building a career  but I will discuss that as we go further but not now !

Moving forward, There was a time in my past relationship where i was giving a key by my ex to his  apartment , it has never happened to me before but it did and he made me think he was committed , well he was I guess as at that time ... Not until I realised the key got missing from my bag In which I thought I was careless with it ... Mind you, I was before careless about it but I found  it later on  but how this particular one got missing baffles me ! I reflected on when we had the last  argument and he told me he has not had sex since last year until March  and it keeps bugging me! I have searched and searched for the key and I didn't see it and my instinct told me he took the key from my bag but he gaslighted  and manipulated me to think I lost it ...
Now there was a time in March were he told me he lost his key and asked me to bring mine which was not too good on my side because it was late at night but I loved his sorry  ass and I went ... Mind you dearest  reader , he ghosted me for days which means he had someone else over and gave her his key and so he needed mine and that's an avenue to collect mine back !

He lost interest in me  right from last year December ! Till January ! I just realized that now and a tear dropped from my eyes ! He was so smart with his moves , he knew I loved him and he played on it , he knew I was empathetic towards him ,that  I will keep sacrificing , giving , burning and not taking ... Thank God it wasn't more than that , I didn't give him my body but I know I showed him my  weakness , I was vulnerable and had enough scars that he couldn't see past !  I wish I confronted him and knew all this but I didn't ...

Today as well I happen to see multiple images of his ex wife , yes he was once married but they splitted up with a story he cooked up who knows and yet I still didn't leave him , I saw myself in his shoes, a man with a heavy past , who went through fire and got burned but came out alive and because I could relate he burned me to ash! I truly,  naturally , effortlessly and wholeheartedly loved him .

Readers ,if a man doesn't love you truly  from the start, he will never love you till the end ... He will only waste your time and give you empty dreams ! Go for what is reciprocated back much more as you give and that is what last ! When both partners want same thing , share same belief, vibe to same view they become unstoppable ! Nothing can come between them !
I pray you discern from the right and wrong of  love shown and acted  to you and for you to not waste time with the wrong because the wrong are just a  Solomon waiting to replace you with the next cocubine !