Your Safe Now

~20~

Jacob's Pov-

I still haven't told Roman about the baby. I was scared. I know the longer I wait the more he'll get mad. I let out a sigh. George, Dream, and Sam were heading to therapy. Sapnap and Karl took the girls out. Roman was taking a shower. He got out and walked into the room.

" Ready to take your testosterone?" He asked holding the needle. I nodded lightly. I hated needles. Roman would do it for me. He sat beside me and wrapped one arm around me.

" Remember why you are doing this." He said as he kissed my head. I nodded. He got the needle ready. He gently lifted my shirt. He looked at me.

" On the count of three." He said softly. I have a nod.

" One." He said softly. I squeezed my eyes shut.

" Two." He said as he stuck the needle in. I hissed for a second.

" That wasn't three," I said letting my shirt fall. He smiled and kissed my head.

" You would have panicked. You do it every time I count." He pointed out. I gave a soft smile. He went back to the bathroom and did what he needed with the needle. He came back and sat beside me.

" What's bothering you?" He asked suddenly. I looked over at him.

" Nothing." I lied.

" There's something going on." He pointed out. I let out a heavy sigh. I turned to face him and he did the same thing.

" Please don't be upset." I whispered. He gently grabbed my hands.

" I won't darling." He said softly.

" I was pregnant. I was going to tell you but I had a miscarriage before I could. I wanted to tell you sooner but I was scared." I whispered. Tears filled my eyes.

" Oh darling I'd never be mad about that. I understand. I'm right here. I will help you in whatever way you need." He said wiping my tears. I nodded lightly.

" I love you." I said quietly. He kissed my nose.

" I love you." He said softly.

" Come here." He said opening his arms. I crawled on his lap. He held me tightly. After a while I moved off his lap.

" How are you feeling?" He asked.

" I'm okay. It happened a week ago so the pain is over. It's mostly mentally not okay." I admitted. He nodded.

" I understand darling." He said softly.

" Let's get a snack." I said quietly. He nodded. We walked out of my room and into the kitchen. George, Dream, and Sam walked in. Sam looked upset.

" Hey how'd it go?" I asked walking up to him.

" It didn't fucking help." He said harshly.

" Give it time. It's not going to be a quick fix." I said softly.

" It's not going to work ever. I'm fucking broken. Stop acting like I'm fixable." He said harshly.

" You don't have to be an ass. He was just checking on you." Roman said. I saw the rage fill Sam quickly.

" Sam it's okay." I tried to say softly. He walked over to Roman.

" How about you keep your fucking mouth shut." Sam said harshly.

" No because all Jacob has done is tried to be nice. He's just checking on you. You don't have to be so rude." Roman said harshly.

" Boys that's enough." Dream said sternly.