I was a firm believer that we should not let our heart overpower our mind but I guess I am going to fail on that one.
Sabay kaming nag la lunch ni Andrew ngayon sa pwesto namin. We are enjoying the view. It is hot but the wind is there so it is not very hot in our spot.
"Finally, war is over!" Andrew said
Tumingin ako sa kaniya ng naka kunot ang noo
"Huh? What war?" Nagtatakang tanong ko
Tumawa lang siya at tumingin sa akin
"What I mean is tapos na yung exam kaya we are finally free from the stress" natatawa niya pa ring sagot
"Gets" sagot ko nalang habang natatawa din
These past few weeks, Andrew really made an effort to gain my trust back. He planned a lot of surprises, gave me flowers even though there's no special occasion. He calls them 'just because' flowers. He also gave a lot of gifts and I really saw his efforts for me to trust him.
He also assured me that there was nothing going on between him and his ex. He is constantly messaging me when he is in their class whenever he have time for me to not overthink. He also made sure to create a distance with him and his ex for me to not get mad. And with that, he made me come back to him.
"Anong oras susunod mong pasok?" tanong niya
"Maya pang 2:00. Ikaw ba?" balik kong tanong
"1:00 start ng klase namin ngayon" sagot naman niya
Tiningnan ko ang aking cellphone upang tingnan kung anong oras na. Nakita kong 12:50 na kaya pinilit ko na siyang umalis.
"Pasok na ko, love. I'll message you if I am not busy, okay? I love you" sabi niya sabay halik sa noo ko
"Yah, don't stress yourself too much. I love you too." balik ko naman sa kaniya
Umalis na siya kaya naiwan akong mag isa sa tinatambayan namin. Dinadama ko lang ang simoy ng hangin at ang bawat hulog ng tuyong dahon na nang gagaling sa mga puno.
Napabuntong hininga ako habang naka tingin sa mga taong tumatambay lang rin sa kung saan saan.
Believing that there's no something romantic between them during that time was the biggest risk I took. I made myself calm and still trusted him even though I can really feel something is off.
He's getting better in assuring me that there's nothing I should worry about though. So, I am holding into that.
