my solitude (fem reader)(a hogwarts story)

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The Great Hall was buzzing with the excitement of another school year at Hogwarts, but as always, it seemed like all eyes were on Hermione Granger. Her impeccable academic record, her unwavering dedication to her studies, and her flawless performances in class had earned her a reputation that was nothing short of remarkable. Hermione was, as ever, the embodiment of the perfect student.

Sitting across from Hermione at the Gryffindor table, I watched as she answered a question from Professor McGonagall, her hand confidently raised high. Her voice was clear and unwavering as she provided a thorough response, her classmates and professors nodding in admiration. Hermione, the star of Gryffindor House, Hermione, the brightest witch of her age.

But this is not about Hermione; it never was. It's about me—her sister, Serena Granger.

As the quieter, less noticeable sibling, I've become accustomed to the shadows. My sister, Hermione, shines like the sun, and I've accepted my role as the moon, content to exist in her gentle glow, hidden away. I've grown comfortable with the notion that I'm the "quiet Slytherin girl," a faceless figure who walks the same castle halls as everyone else, unnoticed and unremarkable.

At the Slytherin table, I am a mere observer in a sea of unfamiliar faces. I don't have friends, and I'm okay with that. I've always been the girl who's cut out of the pictures, the one who isn't invited to the gatherings, and the one who's left to navigate the maze of Hogwarts alone.

It's not that I resent Hermione or begrudge her success. She's worked hard to achieve all she has, and I'm proud of her. But what some might not realize is that she never mentions me. I'm the hidden sister, the forgotten Granger, the one who remains shrouded in obscurity.

Hermione's friends, Ron and Harry, don't even know I exist. The world at large sees me as an insignificant presence. Even if they were to discover I have a sister, they'd find it impossible to imagine anyone other than Hermione. The idea that Serena Granger, the girl who sits at the Slytherin table, is related to the Gryffindor prodigy seems inconceivable.

Sometimes, I wonder if Hermione even thinks about me. Does she recognize the loneliness that gnaws at me every day? Does she understand that I bear the burden of living in her shadow, a mere echo of her brilliance? The truth is, Hermione's achievements cast such a long shadow that it's easy to forget there's another Granger in the castle.

As I observe Hermione from a distance, I can't help but admit that I envy her. Not for the attention or the accolades, but for the clarity and purpose that seem to guide her every step. Hermione knows who she is and where she's headed. She's never been lost in the labyrinth of her own identity.

But me? I'm the girl who drifts through life with uncertainty and anonymity. I'm the girl who doesn't know who she is, and perhaps, that's the way I want it. I've become accustomed to being a blank canvas, waiting to be painted by the colors of others' expectations. The world doesn't know my name, and sometimes, I think I don't either. In the obscurity, I find a peculiar kind of comfort.

You see, I've chosen to embrace my role as the "quiet Slytherin girl," the one who lingers in the background. There's a sense of safety in invisibility, and I've grown attached to it. I don't strive to be recognized or celebrated like my sister, Hermione, and I don't aim to steal her spotlight.

I am Serena Granger, the silent sister, the observer, and the girl who's content to remain in the shadows. It's a role I've accepted, and a part of me that I've come to cherish. The whispers and murmurs that arise from the attention given to Hermione will never reach me, and that's perfectly fine.

In the end, this is not about being someone else, or about changing who I am. It's about finding my place, my solace, and my contentment in the anonymity that comes with being Serena, the girl who walks beside the legend, but will never become one. It's about finding peace in the quiet and realizing that even in the shadows, there's a beauty of its own.

So, as the Great Hall continues to buzz with life and excitement, I sit back and watch, unnoticed and unassuming. I am Serena Granger, and I am comfortable in the knowledge that my existence may forever remain in the shadows, in the sanctuary of my quiet existence, where the chaos of the world doesn't touch me.

As the days at Hogwarts rolled on, I settled into the familiar routine of being "that quiet Slytherin girl." The castle walls held their secrets, and the maze of Hogwarts' halls became my silent companion. My sister, Hermione, continued to excel academically and shine brightly as she always did. She was a force of nature, a whirlwind of ambition and intellect, and I couldn't help but feel a sense of awe and admiration for her.

Our paths rarely crossed during the day, except for the occasional fleeting glance across the Great Hall during meals. Hermione was often engrossed in discussions with her friends, and I was content to be an observer from a distance. Though we shared a family, we lived in two different worlds within the same castle.

In my free time, I often found refuge in the library, where the ancient tomes and mysterious volumes whispered secrets to me. I reveled in the knowledge I gained from the books, indulging in a world of wisdom and magic that was my own, untouched by the expectations of others. It was in those moments, amidst the parchment and ink, that I felt truly alive.

One evening, as I watched the sunset from a hidden alcove by a castle window, I realized that my anonymity allowed me to explore the depths of my own being. I didn't need the world's approval or recognition. I didn't have to seek validation in the eyes of others, and that was a rare privilege.

But as I gazed at the fading light, a whisper of doubt crept in. Did I truly know who I was? In a world that revolved around Hermione's brilliance, where did I fit in? I didn't have a clear sense of purpose, and the identity I had crafted out of obscurity felt as insubstantial as a wisp of smoke.