Daze And Confused

Flashbacks

*Eliana's POV*

  It was 6:30am when I woke up. I heard the buzz they set off everyday for us to wake up and go down to breakfast. I put on my Of Mice & Men hoodie along with my black shorts and vans. It's December 1, 2015. Today marks 3 years of being at Sick Minds.

  As I head down to the Cafeteria I was one of the first to make my way down. I decided to get two chocolate pancakes with syrup and a glass of milk. I decided today I would Sit next to Daniel. Daniel is a cool guy I guess. He's 20, but looks like he's 16. His anger issues come in the way of making friends, but he's easy to chill with. Even though he's a psychopath and killed his wife and kids, he's just not use to the fact everyone will one day leave.

I look up before drinking my milk to see Jeremiah barely coming into the cafeteria. He has bags under his eyes. His eyes are blood shot. Must have snucked in some Weed again. Hopefully Mrs. Parker doesn't notice. His hair is a mess, and looks like he's been crying all night.

  "Hey, Eliana.." I turn to look at Daniel trying to tell me something. "Is Jeremiah doing better..? Since you know... Emi.." In that moment I heard a loud crash. I look up to see Jeremiah standing there, his food splattered everywhere and tears in his eyes. God dammit Daniel.

*Jeremiah's POV*

  Emi. The moment I heard her name I dropped everything I had, just like how my heart did when I found her.

***flashback***

I walked into my room after therapy with Mr. Green. I opened the door to my room, I took off my A Day To Remember hoodie and sat on my bed. I looked at my night stand and saw a note taped to my book "A Mind Without A Home" By Kristina Morgan. She had Schizophrenia just like me. I grabbed the note and read it.

"Dear Jeremiah,
Hello Love, tomorrow's your birthday and you're gonna have a great day! I'm sorry I can't be there for you though. I really am. I love you. Forever And Always.
          Sincerely,
                Emi"

I thought about it. How she was going to be released and I wasn't going to be able to be with her. She promised she would visit though. I smiled. I got up and grabbed a cup of water.

  I dropped the water not caring where it went. I ran straight out of my room down the hall took a left. Her door was locked. Thats when I took down the door, just before Mr. Green could lock down all of our doors. I ran right into her room.

"EMI! EMI WHERE ARE YOU!?" I couldn't help, but scream her name. I heard the nurses running to the room realizing I was here. I threw the chair at the door and that's when I ran straight into the bathroom.

  My heart dropped. Tears started falling from my eyes like a waterfall. My Emi. My precious Emi. I took her down from the rope she was hanging down on and cleaned her slit wrists. "Emi.. please... please don't go... you promised you wouldn't leave..! YOU FUCKING PROMISED ME!" I started crying more then I ever had in my life. Slowly I took out a box from my pocket. I took out a Diamond ring I managed to sneak in. "Emi, my love.. live.. please.. marry me.. I love you.. always and forever.. remember..?"

  The nurses grabbed me, adrenaline rushing through my veins I grabbed the razor Emi used and cut Nurse Parker on the side of her body. I punched Nurse Nami in the face and pushed them both out of the room.

   In that moment everything turned black. I woke up hours later, being told I was given a shot to go to sleep to calm me down. I didn't care. Everything felt dull. I felt empty. My precious Emi was gone and I stood there as I was and felt like nothing.

***flashback over***

I saw Eliana reaching for me, trying to get my attention. I looked at her then at Daniel and ran off. I didn't care where I was going. I didn't know where I was going. I just had to leave. Thats when I heard Hell on Heels. Nurse Parker chasing after me. Before she could do anything I jumped onto the window. Trying to decide.... should I go home to Emi. Or should I stay and feel like nothing.

~Mikey1981Creed
~Evan_Peters_is_Bae