BL one shots/short stories

His fear-His trauma

Characters:- Nan-Mac (Love syndrome)

Mac's pov
" It all started to happen when I was with him,when he was forcing himself on me for the last time. And then when he didn't even touch me , do dirty talk to me for a whole month. When I didn't feel well and he took care of me. When.... when he saves me from that bastard who wants to hurt me at the shopping mall. And moreover when he shows his possessiveness over me. I know.....I know the thing he did to me, the way he forced himself on me , I never have to forgive him. I never have to show even a little bit of mercy on him. He didn't even deserve it. How can someone do this to anyone? How?" With a huff he stopped thinking and fell back to his bed and started murmuring things to make himself sleep but still he is not able to sleep. Then he started the old but very famous sheep counting method but no, he is still awake then he started fiddling with his phone but it also couldn't help much even it makes him remember Nan. Then he saw the time and it was almost morning, he got up and went to the bathroom to do his business and take shower and dressed up. Then he dragged himself out of his room and went to do breakfast where he met his dad and they started a conversation which was full of concern, worriness and smothering.

Mac's dad : Good morning Mac.It's a surprise to see you here at this early hour.

Mac : Good morning dad. A long Yawn*

Mac's dad : Seems like you didn't get enough sleep last night.

Mac : "Yeah, I was just tossing and turning the whole night and didn't even get a little nap",said with another yawn.

Mac's dad : "Mac ,I know you are having a hard time getting yourself on track as before but not getting sleep or eating less won't help you son", said with full of worry.

Mac : "I know dad, but I can't help. It's not like I am doing this for getting your attention or for dying. It's just... just happening itself and I am unable to stop it", said with crack, dry voice and tears in his eyes.

Mac's dad : Sigh* "I know son but I am just worried about you. I don't want to attack you with my words. If this is the case, I think you have to take help from a psychologist or maybe you have to go for a trip , yea that must be a good idea", said with a concern.

Mac : I'll think about it.

Mac's dad : Hmm

They both did breakfast and Mac's dad went to office and Mac get back to his room. He start thinking that his dad is right and worry about him. While thinking that he closed his eyes and gets into the dreamland.

Author's pov

After Nan sent him back he thought about him all day He cried sometimes laugh, sometimes he smiles and laugh. After some weeks he started to think about getting back with Nan but he is afraid , afraid that if he goes there again he has to do those things again,and he doesn't want that. But his heart wants him, he wants to kiss him, cuddle with him and want an aftercare session by him after doing it , he knows that Nan never gives him an aftercare session but still he wants it . He knows if he gets back with him and everything gets well. he (Mac) will make him (Nan)do his care . But still he is afraid.He knows that he lost his heart and soul for Nan. He can't help but fall more and more for Nan, for that man who hurt him , who didn't deserve anyone's mercy and sympathy. Who just deserve punishments. But his heart is already lost, so he can't do anything now.