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𝒞𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓉𝑒𝓇 23 : 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨

Andrew's POV:

We kissed.Lillie and I kissed

I knew it was wrong,she did too
I mean she just found out her boyfriend cheated on her with the person she trusted the most.If I was in her place,I would've killed them right on the spot.But she did really good job holding back
I don't know how,or when my opinion of her changed,but it did
The girl I couldn't stand when she got here.The girl that got on my nerves every time she opened her mouth.The first girl who wasn't obsessed with me in any sexual way was the girl I made out with

It's nothing unusual for me to make out and sleep with girls.But with her it felt different.With her,it didn't felt like its just for a one night.It felt like a right thing I needed.Like the thing I craved for
Thank God she broke the kiss,because If she didn't we would've fucked right there on the fucking bench.It would be a pitty fuck
I usually don't mind if its pitty,fuck is a fuck.But with Lillie it would've felt wrong and disrespectful

A cold splash of water on my head snapped me out of my thoughts.Right on time
I love cold showers.They relax and make me think realistically
I spilled shampoo in my hair and started brushing it hard.The smell of chlorine still hit me in the head
I was tired,exhausted.Most of the pool party we had yesterday,but there was a part because of all the things going through my head

I finished quickly,put on my pajamas and went out on balcony.There was a whole sofa outside,with a small coffee table next to it.There was a bouquet of Lillies on the table.I smiled.Looks like I figured how she got her name
I took out of my pocket a pack of cigarettes and lifted one with a lighter.Yes I keep cigarettes in my pajamas,because most of the time I smoke in the night.When no one can bother and disturb my peace
The taste of tobacco hits me right in the lungs as I inhale the smoke before holding it inside and blowing out

The moon illuminated empty streets.Only sound you could hear was leaves blown by the wind, and the occasional car passing by grabbing my attention as he moves by
Well,it should,but its not.A thousand of things is passing my mind,keeping me occupied
The cold wind blows again and I could smell Lillies.Everything reminds me of her,the moment we had
Her soft cherry colored lips
Her dark,shiny,vanilla scented hair
Her perfect curves,driving my mind crazy
Its addicting

I don't know what's wrong with me.Why I feel like this.We couldn't stand each other's presence like two days ago.She's supposed to be my enemy
But why she doesn't feel like it then?
The feeling I can't explain
The only possible thing that comes up to my mind is that... I am falling in love with her
But I shouldn't,I can't
I don't even know how she feels
Does she regrets our kiss? Maybe she's not thinking like I am? Besides,she probably still loves Luke
I can't tell her anything,at least not now,so it's better if I ignore her for the next couple of days to settle this dilemma in my head
It's the best.For both of us

It was getting freezing outside.I looked at my phone
1 a.m
Time flew fast as fuck
I put the cigarette butt in the ashtray before going back into the room, closing the door behind me.I walked to the bed,took of my slippers and jumped under the cold refreshing mattress
Tomorrow we have to go back to the dorms,and there will be awkward silence between me and Lillie
I groan and roll to the other side of the bed
I better prepare for the next days,because it will drain me mentally

So I know that it's short,but I just wanted to show you Andrew's perspective of all this mess
Who knew he could be thinking like this?
What does Lillie think about this? For sure she's hurt but there gotta be more
Write in the comments your thoughts and don't forget to vote
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P.S: I actually managed to find time and upload multiple times this week.Which is surprising
The next update will be out in the next days probably,because here in Serbia we have upcoming mini break of just a couple of days,so I will take advantage of it and write more (Yes guys I live in Serbia 😭)
Again,write in the comments and vote 🫶🏻