Out Of Control Villainess

No Retreat

I open my eyes to find myself in my room.

It could be one of two things, either he bought me back to the mansion, or he killed me and everything has been reset.

I think it's the second case.

I wait patiently for the maid who always storms in every time I reset.
After storming in, usually, Alina takes control and does her thing.

If I run out of the room, I'll encounter Alina's brother, which is much worse.

I'm terrified by the man.
I don't understand how Alina behaves the way she does with him.

I sit on the side of the bed and wait.
There, the door was slammed open.
Only, it wasn't the maid to my surprise.

"Alina!! What have you done!?"

I flick my hair to one side, unbothered.
I couldn't control myself.
Looks like I didn't reset, this is familiar.

"What have I done?"

"The maid you hurt belongs to the princess, Don't you understand what you've done?!"

"Offer her another. Are we, the Duke's family so poor as to not offer the princess another maid? One who is not as rude?"

His teeth become visible as he grinds them together.
His body came closer, so quickly that I didn't have the time to follow him with my eyes.

His hands take hold of my neck, I let myself fall.
the grip tightens, the pain coming from it only worsens.
I wanted to scream. But I am unable to.
I knew I could never get used to it, no matter how many times I had to go through this.

His nails dig further into my skin, and this time I feel a pulse, a beat. I still don't know if it is his or mine, but I sense it on my skin, on the back of my head, and I hear it.

As my eyes close once again, I feel him finally pulling back. I am able to breathe now.

He makes his way towards the door, but before leaving he turns...one last time.

"I will take care of it in your stead, but if this happens to reoccur, you won't be let go of so easily."

"Tsk."
He leaves the room and I receive control over my body again.

I touched the place, it had become red, his hand imprinted. It hurt. It hurt so much.

Alina's brother, Osvo is a man of little words, by that I mean that he uses his hands often before his words. Though I don't know which hurts more at this point.

I will have to cover the marks with a turtleneck dress. Since I repeated this part so often, I already had one prepared as soon as I regressed after the first time.

But I could also open another path by showing my neck. But that would infuriate Osvo and I'd have to deal with him once again.
The only reason I am able to choose between the two is simply because it is of minor importance.

The plot will not be affected by it, but her father will ask about it. And I do not want to answer any questions at this stage.
Besides, whatever I answer him with, he'll end up scolding me and mentioning the maid.

"Ah...I can't take it anymore..."

I sigh heavily.
I look at myself once again through the life-sized mirror placed in my room.

My cheeks are red, there are marks on my neck and shoulder, one was left by pain, the other by pleasure.
My cheeks flush a brighter red as I think of yesterday.
A servant rushes into the room. She kneels before me.

"I apologize my lady! For my tardiness!"

"No need to apologize."

She looked at me startled.

"...you'll forget everything by tomorrow."
I mumble, maybe to myself, or I wish for her to hear.

I chose the dress I had prepared previously.

A soft blue and white dress, covered in small details. I chose this because it fitted my taste the most but it did not fit Alina's image. Regardless, I can't forget the reason I wear it.

I make my way towards the dining hall, where Alina's brother and father are already seated with drinks in their hand. They seem to be in good spirits. Until I stepped in that is.

They looked or rather glared.

"There she is. I told you she'd be late father."

"Sit, Alina, there is something I must tell you."

I know what he has to say. But I will not have to answer any questions since he is so sure of his opinion of me.

He stares at me with an expressionless face. I can read nothing from the depths of his eyes, but I know what he wants me to talk about.

"You will have to officially apologize to the princess."

"Yes."
I reply, without any hesitation whatsoever.
But he hesitates, though it's not enough for any change.

"I have no appetite, may I take my leave if you'll allow me? There is nothing to discuss left."

He stares, for what feels like a long time, then approves of my leave. Osvo gave me a strange gaze, but then again, he might have thought I was going crazy as always.

I don't know why it bothered me.
It should be nothing to me, there are no expectations on any side, but I felt so tired...

"Your grace...I'll ask this of you as the lord, not as my father. May I leave? For a day at least, on my own, no maids, no knights."

"What mess do you wish to cause this time?"

"She doesn't want to apologize to her Highness, that's it," Osvo says.

I shake my head.

"No messes, nothing. I just wish to rest. May I?"

It is impossible to escape the plot, but I discovered that if I disappear when the plot doesn't need me, and I'm not around people that come forth in the novel, then I can do what I want, even if for a short while.

And as always, since I'm behaving out of character, they are doomed to forget everything soon...

"Will you please allow me?"

There is a long pause before anyone says anything...

"You may. But come back before it becomes dark."

"Thank you, your grace..." I smile softly out of joy and quickly make my way outside to the town.

A place ruled by extras that are never mentioned in the novel, a place where someone like me can finally acquire freedom for a moment.

I don't remember when was the last time I truly laughed, maybe it was years ago... I have been in this story for so long that I can't remember anything, so I know it's been years.
I sometimes wonder, what happened after I died, and why would my dear sister have done that.

I was never bad to her, I loved her. after our parents died when I was ten and she was six... it was me who took care of her.
I loved her so much, for me she was my light. For her, I kept fighting in a world of cruelty.
And I don't blame her for killing me. I forgive her...She's my little sister......

The sun begins to set, the sky turning orange.
I walk through the streets of the town until I feel my feet burning. I find a place to sit and watch the sunset in silence.

Peaceful. This is so peaceful.

To be continued.