FreeFall

A new day?

Shane's POV:

My eyes slowly open, damn they open. I don't want to anymore. My head is pounding endlessly, but I can hear another person with me, so I open them wider. Until a few eyes stare into mine.

Sky blue, just like the sky under which I once felt safe and secure.

Damien's eyes... have they always looked like this?

"Thank God, I thought I had killed you with my punch," he spoke calmer than I knew.

"Unfortunately not," I said dryly. He got up from the strange bed I'm lying in and grabbed his phone and left the room.

I took the opportunity to sit up properly and feel every emotion as before.

Wait. What time is it? I looked out the window and saw the full moon directly.

He and the sun have always been of great importance. Such immense distance and yet such beauty...

The click of the door made me immediately turn around and I saw Damien's face again. My fists clenched immediately. My anger quickly returned.

Damien slowly approached me and raised his hands surrenderingly. "Sorry Shane... I-I didn't know about all of this," he seemed nervous and swallowed hard too.

Unusual for him... am I really dead?

"What are you talking about?" I spoke in a voice that I myself didn't recognize. It hurts, it hurts a lot to speak.

"Please sit down again and have something to drink, okay?" he looked at me as if I were a bomb that could explode any second. But he's not wrong.

"Forget it." Shit. Ouch. I held my throat and slowly sat back down on the bed. I looked down at my body and saw the clothes that clearly aren't mine.

Damien knelt next to the bed and spoke extremely calmly and perhaps anxiously to me.

"Noah told me everything that's happening at your home, I didn't know about all of it, you have to believe me. Even if it doesn't excuse my behavior, if I had known, then I-I don't know, I wouldn't have been such a jerk."

He looked at my face and searched for a reaction before continuing.

"After I knocked you out, not on purpose," he said immediately in panic, "I decided to bring you to my place with Noah. Since I live alone anyway, no one would mind and you could rest here. Shane, I'm infinitely sorry. You don't have to forgive me, I can't even do it myself, but..."

"Exactly, Damien, I can't forgive you." I will never forgive you, you fucking bastard.

"As I said, you don't have to, can you answer two questions for me? As honestly as possible?"

I nodded slowly, as I said, I don't know him like this, why is he like this? Because of my attempt?

"Was I the reason?" he stared at his fingers, which were nervously battling with each other. I do it too when I'm nervous, it made me chuckle a bit, but that's not the thought I should keep having.

"You were part of it, Damien," I said softly and truthfully.

"O-Okay, I'll leave you alone in the future, I promise. But Shane, would you try again?" he ended so softly that it could have just counted as a breath.

But would I try again? I don't know. I didn't even think about something like that for long. I just wanted to end the suffering that I face every day.

"Shane?" Damien spoke calmly and looked directly into my eyes. I think for the first time I heard him say my name in this tone. It sounds pleasant, I won't lie about that.