I took Tae to her old favorite spot. The swing set under the cherry blossom trees. It dead wasn't even a cherry blossom tree but that's just the park name.
Don't search that shit up
Trill. We sat down on the swing and we sat in silence for 10 minutes... I really ain't know what to say when the actual moment came. I just put my hand on her lap and she looked at me a little confused.
"What are you doing, Jenn?" She asked me. Jenn Jenn Jenn Jenn Jenn fucking Jenn. I really wanted to tell her I don't want to hear her saying my name unless she moaning it. Like what? Why you not calling me baby like old times? I rolled my eyes and looked her in those pretty eyes... damn.
"I'm dead tired of this." I said while letting out a long sigh. "Tired of what? What are you tired of Jenn?" She asked. "Yo bro, I swear to God-" I paused... "huh?" She said. I was getting so fed up, never been tired of my own name more than now. I just wanted shit to go back how it was.
"You know how I feel about expressing myself... But I know I gotta do this... so can- can..." I looked down.
"It's ok." She said reassuring me. I just wanted to kiss her. "Can you just listen?" I asked. "Ofcourse." She replied.
"I admit to everything ok. Yea I cheated and embarrassed you and all that shit. I'm sorry. Like... deadass. I been going mad crazy thinking about you. I been losing my fucking mind. Then I peeped you all on yo ex and shit. Shit got me mad tight." I balled up my fist and clashed them together.
She put her hand on my shoulder as I calmed down.
"I'll get help ok. I promise... I just need you here with me. All these other bitches be dummy, they dead as fuck to me word to bro." I said as I went on and on.
I just really hoped she could tell this shit was coming from my heart and not my head. Word to everything I couldn't be more genuine bro. She was just... so easy and just let me do what ever the fuck I wanted.
"You leaving was just like... made me realize a whole lot of shit." I added. After, I just put my head in my hands and she grabbed my arms. "I forgive you ok. I been did a long time ago. I never wanted what happened to happen but you knew the time was coming. I was naive and the fact that I'm even outside with you just shows me how much bullshit I'm full of.
...
And I'm not saying that in anyway to offend you. But what you did was dead wrong. I know under the influence, and your ho ass friends around, the temptation is high. I never cheated on you. I never thought I had a reason to cheat on you. Even after all the shit you did. But our love was strong..." She said...
...wait
"Was, strong?" I said.
I snapped
"Nigga I still fucking love you, the fuck?" I yelled. "No no I didn't mean it-" she said before I cut her off. "Now this shit getting me dead tight bro... but keep talking. Don't do that shit again." I said as I mumbled more shit under my breath.
She just side eyed me and laughed. "What?" I asked, still mad annoyed. "You... you just something else Jenn, for real." She said while smiling. "I dead don't know what you talking about." I genuinely said. "You and these sudden outburst... bipolar much?" She said. "Wait nah! What you tryna say Tae?" I asked.
"You so... moody." She said as she looked away, not knowing how I'd react. I scrunched up my face... "Moody? What nigga?" I snapped.
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"Jenn-" She paused before laughing hysterically. "Nah you geekin." I said. "Like damnnn she in haa moooood." She said. "Man shut that shit. Yeen even from New York tryna sing ice spice." I said while scrunching my face.
She just kept laughing... my face softened watching her mood change instantly. One minute she buggin me, next minute shorty kickin ass, next minute she venting, now she laughing. And she say I'm moody?
Are you dumb?
Now I'm getting mad annoyed all over again. She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back as she reached to hug me, placing her arms on my shoulders. I hugged her waist and we stayed like that for a good minute.
A whole 10 minutes passed by with us just hugging all on eachother. She smelled so good. I was lowkey upset that she had this ho ass outfit on. But that's my baby still. The fuck? Fuck you thought this shit was over? Hell nah...
She tried pulling back but I gripped her towards me tighter. "Jenn, they probably worried about us..." she said. "I don't care fuck them. " I said. "Jenn..." She said making me suck my teeth. I pulled back off her slickly rubbing my hand over her ass cheek that was poking out through that body suit.
I heard her let out a cute sigh as we broke apart. I looked her in her eyes and bit my lips. She clutched her shoulders together and smiled. She always did that cute shit when she was nervous... I ain't know why. She was the real freak.
I read right through her, and I knew how I wanted this night to end... and every other night... and every other morning. Fuck I was reminiscing again... we got off the swing set and went back to my drop. We pulled off and vibed to my music all the way back to the party.
When we got there we saw everybody was still turning up, some was talking about the fight, and everybody else was all over us. Either someone asking about Tae, or asking me if I "Controlled that all the way."
