my celebrity crush Billie eilish

chapter 5

I opened the door and her eyes went to my chest i laughed and blushed, i- i- I'm sorry I um forgot to put uhhh  finish getting dressed she laughed and walked in "nice place she said, thanks I laughed "shit it smells good asf in hea " the singer said , well I'm gonna go get dressed I'll be rig- " no need girl this is yo house stay comfortable" i blushed and said ok well the cinnamon rolls art done so we can go with my room and watch the office or something "the office" she questioned

Yes well ik you like it so yea i awkwardly blushed

You're cute she says, my face is red as a tomato at this point
She walks in my room " shit Kayla yo room is sick but idk how you can't keep it so clean everything is white" Billie said

Well I mean I'm barley here i laughed she smiled you can take off your shoes if you want you can put them on the stand she takes her shoes off and put them on the stand and comes and sit next to me like really close

You smell super familiar the singer said , well I'm wearing your perfume we both busted out laughing

Tell me about yourself the singer says , well I'm 19 uhhhh I have two siblings we don't really talk much but it's all love I used to live in Florida but I was born in Georgia and I'm a singer we both laughed

I don't want to know what I can Google about you she laughed
Tell me about one of your ex boyfriends or something

Well I've never I had a boyfriend but I've had a few girl friends I laugh awkwardly not knowing what she's going to say

You're lesbian hum I would have never guessed she laughed well tell me about one of your ex-girlfriends or your first love or something

First love uhhhhhh that was a terrible relationship she was 7 years older than me and completely crazy and left me for man

Damn she laughed it's not funny it's just crazy asf who tf would cheat you n you you're so damn pretty and you seem nice and have a good personality

I turn my head blushing so hard that she called me pretty and thinks I'm nice and have a good personality . well I guess she  just wasn't gay or didn't really care about me idk i think in our whole relationship she just used me for sex in all honesty because that was the only time we weren't arguing the only time when we get rlly to got along

You know who ever she was didn't deserve you  she was a total piece of shit it was definitely her loss but I know exactly how you feel I was 15 dating a 22-year-old the only thing I could have possibly been good for was  sex to him because what do we even have in common that relationship really messed me up had me giving more than I was getting back you know

I definitely know it's unfortunate we both had to go through that they both were sick they got to find someone their own age she made me feel totally special like I was the only person in the world and it's crazy I think the only reason I was attracted to her face because of my severe mommy issues we both laughed but seriously Billie you are literally so pretty that stupid guy was not even in your league she blushed like her cheeks went red and she turned her head and said we should go check on the cinnamon rolls

We were now at the table eating cinnamon rolls when she asked me how did I know I was attracted to girls, " I mean honestly I was like second grade and have the biggest crush on my teacher but no seriously I remember just like  my friends were like hold my hand or like playing my hair and It felt like was doing something wrong and it felt like weirdly real when they would  kiss me and say  they are practicing for boys and it didn't feel like a joke to me it felt real and I just love the girls I mean what's not to love , feelings are just so intense and my heart jump every time like a pretty girl would say something to me idk o kinda just only wanted to be around girls " I say

Damn that's intense and deep so when did you have your first girlfriend she asked me

Hi my first girlfriend at 15 she was my like best friend and she randomly told me we dated for about 7 months and then we were about to have sex and she tells me she's not a lesbian and we never speak again she completely ghosted me she even moved School

Damn bro what's up with these girls you be picking  Kayla

I don't know it's either always straight or like in their mid to late twenties I have serious issues

No shit you definitely have issues but don't we all I'm pretty sure you already know about my crazy age gaps me and Billie both laugh

Boy so how did you even get involved with this person who is 7 years older than you when you were like 16 

They came in when I was working at Starbucks and they flirted with me gave me their number they didn't really care that I was 16 we kept texting and then they planned to meet up with me at their house

Omg so you went to their house I'm guessing y'all fucked

Well yeah we did they were like my first time it's was crazy...

"Was it good " Billie asked I don't know why but I blushed about her wanting to know if it was good "it was good it was actually great I guess that was a good thing about dating someone older" I say

I mean yea the older probably the better sex " I mean I would assume sex with you is great..... y look at you" Billie blushed as she said

My face turned so red and I couldn't even comprehend what just happened " I mean I'm pretty sure sex is great with you too like look at you like so gorgeous" i say to her  her face turns red and we both laugh nervously

So like tell me where you like a bottom of the whole time you're with the older person Billie questioned

I mean I'm like a  switch , with her she like to taught me everything that I know about sex really but honestly after her I had a little situation before moving to LA and I really enjoyed being the top I say

You continue to surprise me I totally thought you would be a bottom cuz you like get off super pretty and like girly I don't know she blushed

I laughed no I definitely like to give more than receive I say as I watch your face turn redder at this point I'm completely sure that she's blushing I'm nothing sure  if I'm being delusional I'm not sure if making this up she's actually blushing and smiling she's playing with her fingers as if she's nervous

Well um yea she looked at her phone i- i- i need to go she stutter and she got up and walked out of the door and not even saying goodbye