my celebrity crush Billie eilish

Chapter 15

The rest of that little meal I had wit Billie one week ago I had zoned out but it's safe to say I'm rlly into towa like omg  and I feel like she knows me and the sex is great and I was thinking  was gonna ask ha to be my gf we had talked about it yesterday and we rlly wanna move things to the next level i am currently on the way to her condo apartment when I open the door she's wearing a sports bra and joggers and must I say she looks amazing but soon as I walked in I smelled the great smell of cinnamon rolls what she knew was my favorite because we talk everyday all day aside from writing music together

"I missed you and you look amazing and I also made cinnamon rolls" Towa  said I am very thankful I say, giving her a kiss on the lips she looks at me after we get done kissing and she asked me do you wanna be my girlfriend? I look at her shocked because I wanted to ask her but yes

It's been a 3 months of her being my girlfriend officially and it has been great we like super PDA. We got a movie premieres award shows we're just like in love we're writing an album together it safe to say it's a bit on the Sexual side right now, we are at a premier party for our new song is dropping tonight is call all over my body and to be honest I haven't really seen much of Billy she is been really distant ever since I told her me and Tower are official we had a dinner together they didn't really like get along but also she's lost herself in dating this Jesse guy but I can't blame her if that's what she wants. I don't miss her we used to hang out every day and talk every day but last time we spoke was two months ago she told me she was the type to fall in love with a guy and distance herself from all of her friends but I don't really believe her until I've been trying to hang out with her every day. She has probably like 11 unread messages for me like 100 calls after two months of not answering the phone I just stop calling she completely ghosted me, but I can't be mad at her. She told me what she do when she got with this new guy, but I am almost about to go on stage and I feel warm arms wrapped around me and a kiss on my neck. I instantly knew it was my lovely girlfriend she I turned around to see her looking down at me which completely made me nervous. She kiss me and told me I looked beautiful and she looks so much more gorgeous. We had it on stage and we begin to sing our song and the lyrics went

I feel your warm of breath against my neck. With your arms wrapped around my waist all I want is a taste of you.

After we finish performing this song, everyone was clapping and saying how great it was. I went to the back to freshen up. When I feel someone grab my hand and push me into my dressing room. I turn around and met with a familiar vanilla smell. It was Billie, Billie Eilish, herself, she looked at me and said "damn y'all might as well fucked on the stage " be both laughed " Billie what are you doing here " I ask cs i haven't seen her in 3 months " well i- I- " you what Billie you ghosted me and pretending I didn't fuckin exit what kinda of friend are you hell you called me your best friend but you treated me like trash and didn't respond to any of my retro calls like what in the actual fuck I say almost in tears

"Look I'm sorry i understand that's is no excuse for what I did but I fell I love and completely forgot about everyone and I don't fuck Kayla you don't understand " Billie said . "Well fuck bil make me understand you never had any reason to treat me how you did you could have at least told me something responded to a simple text you know saying hey I'm alive or something you you k now what fuck you i deserve better leave right now " I say serious as all get out " look you don't understand I- I- it's was hard ok seeing you with her it fuckin hurt and I didn't know why fuck I've never felt these things for a woman it was all tm for me I didn't know how to tell you when you guys came to that dinner with me and Jessie it made my blood boil it was jealousy and Imtnot a jealousy person but god that shit hurt I'm sore Kayla please forgive me but I thought if I threw my self in a rls wit a guy and ghost you the feelings would go away but every time I see you with her it's makes me sick to my stomach and I can't fathom the thought thought of you do in the bedroom and it makes me sick how I wish it was me.
I hate it I hate her I hate y'all tg and I know this is bad timing but I really don't care. I can't hold this in anymore. I broke up with Jesse and I'm here for you. I want you I need you I crave you you're my everything waking thought . I've wrote way too many songs about you more than I like to admit . I'm obsessed. I'm in love. I can't think about anything other than you. " Billie says I look at her completely in shock, if someone told me five years ago that Billie Eilish be confessing her love to me, I would laugh at them and call them crazy this is such bad timing lol because me and Towa are in a great relationship she will never be Billie Eilish
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An: I do not feel like re-reading it so if there's errors just deal with it sorry not sorry thank you for almost 1000 reads