Omaha Sex Diaries

Part 18

Natalia POV

"I still can't wrap my brain around the fact that Nate took the blame for the joints." Vicki said as we laid in her bed three days after one of the most frightening nights of my life.

"Me either. I don't even know what I'm gonna say to him when I see him...whenever that is. His parents don't want him leaving the house, they're pissed." I said picking at my fingernails.

"Just be glad he didn't have to go to prison. He literally went to jail for several hours and just has to pay a fine." Vicki replied.

"True, but he's a celebrity figure. Like I'm surprised this hasn't leaked." I said. I had actually stalked Twitter and several Nate Maloley update accounts looking for information, but so far nothing which was a good sign.

"Are you gonna tell him? You know, about your discovery?" Vicki asked referring to my realization that me being abandoned by my father when I was younger was the ultimate cause of my fear of attachment.

"Eventually. I actually booked my first appointment with a psychiatrist for tomorrow."

"I'm proud of you Tal. You've come a long way, we both have. You know it was a matter of time before both of us outgrew our ridiculous life style. We did some crazy ass shit." Vicki said as we both began to reminisce about old parties and such.

"Wait remember that one time we both blew--" I began as I was cut off by Vicki's phone going off.

She held up a finger to stop me as she picked up.

"Hey!"

"I know I've missed you too."

"Yeah definitely still on for tonight. See you then!"

Vicki hung up the phone and looked at me to continue.

"Vick, who was that, do you have a date or something?" I asked.

"Um yeah I do." Vicki said as she nervously giggled.

"Details!" I said.

"Jack G." She said looking at me like she was expecting me to slap her.

"You like him, don't you?" I questioned with a smile.

"A lot actually and I think he likes me too." Vicki replied

"Why are you looking at me like I'm going to kill you, You know Gilinsky was nothing more to me than sex." I said.

"I don't know, I guess I thought I needed like confirmation that it was okay, I'm glad you're okay with it." Vicki said grabbing my hand.

"I'm just happy that you're happy." I said.

"And I want you to be happy. Go tell Nate everything, you really like him I see it in your eyes, go be with him." Vicki said enthusiastically.

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An hour later I finally got the nerve to drive to Nate's house. To say I was nervous was an understatement, but Nate had done so much for me, things no one else would ever dream about doing.

This was it, I was ready for the first time in my life to make a commitment. Something I never dreamed about doing.

I parked my car and headed to the front door of the Maloley's house. I couldn't help but smile as I passed Nate's Nissan, making me remember when he dropped off Taco Bell at my house.

My palms were sweaty, legs shaking as I rang the doorbell.

An older man, who I assumed to be Nate's father answered the door.

"Can I help you?"

"Hi, I'm Tal, Nate's friend. I wanted to know if he was home so I could talk to him?" I asked.

"I'm afraid not." Was all Nate's father said.

"Do you know when he'll be home, I can come back later!" I said with a small smile.

"Nate's, not in Omaha at the moment."

"Oh. Where did he go?" My smile faltered.

"He didn't tell you? He went back to California yesterday."

My heart felt like it had dropped into my stomach. Here I was ready to make a commitment to Nate, the guy who made me question all my beliefs and everything that made me who I was. And just like I had feared, he left me. I knew this was too good to be true.