Lane Stefania.

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Boys told me they never mind the looks.

Lane Stefania looked at her reflection in the mirror. Her laugh echoed in the bathroom, which made the others look at her confusedly. The beads of tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down her face.

Hindi naman niya pinansin ang mga judgemental na nakapaligid sa kanyang pulang-pulang mga labing hindi na umayon na kulay sa kanyang kutis. Pake ba nila? God knows her makeup looks more terrible because of her complexion, but who cares? This is her first time at a club, so let her feel the moment. It's been three days since her boyfriend dumped her for someone prettier.

Boys told me they never mind the looks, their ass.

Lane watched the girl apply a cream-based lipstick to her lips. Wow, ang ganda naman. Did she also prepare herself at 5:30 in the morning, doing skincare, makeup, and hair to see someone look so pretty with a bare face? Sinubukan niya rin bang mamili ng mga outfits hanggang sa maging confident siya pero 'pag lumabas, babalik ulit 'yung confidence niya sa baba as if hindi siya nag-ubos ng oras para lang pumili ng maayos na suot? 

"What's with that look, girl?" The strange woman rolled her eyes and left.

She feels so jealous. She feels like the world is unfair. People aren't even friendly to her because she doesn't fit their standards. I hate my face so much. If only I were pretty. If only I had a symmetrical look. If only I had consistent confidence.

She knows and has accepted the reality for a long time that she'll never be pretty in their eyes. How can people like her when she can't like herself? Even the amount of makeup and beauty filters couldn't conceal her insecurity. Gusto niya lang namang may taong tatanggapin siya at ituturing siyang special. God knows how it took her long years to improve her self-esteem to break it again with just one slap of harsh words. She'll end up criticizing herself, loathing... hurting.

If only she could be Maxea Solares in one day, she might be satisfied. 

Maxea Solares, the epitome of beauty. How can anyone not like her? She's irritatingly beautiful, so dashing she can't even admit she can be gay for her. It's so unfair. How could a person be so beautiful as if there's nothing wrong with her? That's so unfair.

Inayos niya muli ang kanyang sarili sa salamin bago umalis.

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