A Broken Serenade

Avoidance

I wonder what it would feel like

having someone with you when you are at your lowest,

without making you feel like you are dislike

but stays with you for being the sweetest.

Sees you for who you truly are,

as if they cannot exist for you are their star

which lights up their dark and cold atmosphere

and tells you just how much they love you, loud and clear. 

I wonder how it feels like when someone exerts the same effort you give, 

without blaming and calling you insensitive,

but accepting you wholeheartedly

and gives the same effort, twice as much undisputedly. 

I wish I can have this with you.

Unfortunately, this is too good to be true. 

You'd rather stay on your own, 

pushing people away, avoiding like a stone.

I find this unfair, really unfair.

Why must I go through this as I shatter

beneath my hollowed lair, 

wondering, when will I ever matter?